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alrite. look at my nick. i am rather PISSED with life here. sighs. i shall tell u all EVERYTHING from last night.

alrite. so i was on the phone with dear. usual stuffys. den it was pretty quiet. so.... i remembered tat tym mi and Fiona laopo read this mag. so this particular mag went to the streets to kinda lyk INTERVIEW those street-sters. the question was wad would u lyk to chnage about ur gf. GF onli. so they were practically interviewing GUYS onli. so.. there were alortsa negative ones and 2 positive ones. some of the negative went lyk..... "i hope she'd be less bitchy." "i wish she wore more skirts." those 2 positive ones. which was ULTIMATELY sweet!!! yea!! they went lyk "i wouldnt wan her to change anything for she is perfect" "i wouldnt want her to change anithing for she is wad i love." so sweet rite. so i asked dear. he went HUH! and ask mi repeat. i was kinda mad.. it's not i dun wanna repeat lorhs. jus tat he isnt listening to wad i say always. yea! and i am soooooooo pissed lohs. lyk y isnt he listening to wad i say. den in a while.. hung up. and i had flu. and he asked if there is anithing wrong with my nose. so i went lyk no. and i bet he would take it as no lorhs. sighs.. den he say he'd call mi bak later. den i told him dun nid. den hang. den he sms. den i slept.

this morning. or infact.. the whole day WASN'T right. i was damn fucking pissed. i shall describe mani mani things. pfft!! morning assembly was shit. cos it's lyk no one wanna sing the national anthem. den we were made to stand at the field to sing. and we couldnt hear the tape so we're laughing. so got one tcher scold us lor. he went lyk it's ur nation's song and u're laughing? LOLs. it was realli funny. everyone couldnt tolerate it. yea.

den after everything.. came accounts. Calvin and mi hesitated to go for accounts class. cos we're dropping. but in the end we still went. den hor. the table was vandalised until lyk shit. den later i asked mr.Tien.. den he say aiyaa. mus be those CO ppl yesterday. den i was so fucking pissed lorhs. den the UNIVERSITY STUDENT went lyk co co co lyk tat. i waws so pissed. den i went lyk ____ sucks. yea.

during recess.. i was so late. and the chi stall didnt open. so had to buy noodles instead. so fine.. si hui was there. so we ask si hui to help us buy. den hors. i was next to her. den got one concillor say get in line. den i went in. den this BITCH said tat excuse mi. i didnt see u lining up. can u stand aside. y r u Q-ing up. den i was lyk i help her take laksa. den later she say i dun think she nid someone to help her take as she is buying onli one bowl. den i veri angry. didnt eat. onli ate sandwich. den i told emily lorhs. Johnathan onli one person buy so mani bowls. his frd all there.. y dun catch them. catch mi for wad. den hor. the NIPPLE was there hypocriting about Johnathan they all lorhs. fucking hell. all hypocrite.

den when going to class after recess, luna was going up the stairs. den someone step on her shoes. den she stood there to wear her shoes back as it came off. Lile go bang her. and instead scold her. den luna was angry.. den chongchen ask luna dun say anithing cos luna was scolding lile kp or smth.. den i was lyk comfort luna. den she cried. den lyk tat lohs.

den after sch. fucking hell. even big tai ji. mi and emily yesterday go eat at CWP foodcourt. so there were 2 admiralty sec girls. so they slam the bags on the table. it's onli my right reaction tat i'd be turning around to see lohs. den i duno. since den they kept staring at Emily. den todae at fdcourt i didnt eat during reces so went there for lunch. den later.. those girls came again. den they sat down den she say wah lau eh. gang gang lai jiu diao ren.. den didnt bother abt them lohs. so hor. she took her bag after eating. den i tot she wanna go to the toilet. den she didnt. she came to our table and point at Emily. and say in chinese y u stare at mi yesterday. she was pointing lor! den emily say she nvr and tat it's them which stare first but emily was looking at another side. so they say y again. den i say hello, u see hu wanna stare at u first. u think we wanna stare at u ah. den later she say duno wad den another girl say if u nvr look at us, how u know we look at u. den i told her in english. cos i couldnt stand mandarin. i said. it's the same thing. if u dun look at mi, how i look at u. if i dun look at u, how i knoe if u look at mi? den she say u dun tok to mi in english. my english veri poor. deni was lyk my chinese veri poor wad u wan mi to do. den she diam. so Emily kinda freak out. so she said since u say it's my fault. i apologise. den they still not happy. emily apologised 2 times. den hor. XY tell them can u dun be so unreasonable.........bla......bla........bla..........bla.........bla.......bla.... den got one girl say u werent here yesterday. den later xinying duno say wad after awhile. den later she say u r not here u dun tok or smth lyk tat. den i say u dun talk rudely to my frd. den she diam. den sometimes i tok i will point point point. as in all 5 fingers out. den later she say u tok y point point point. den later i say u oso wad. den she say i started it first. den later right. i say.. when u think u r right. wadever i say is all my fault. den later she diam. den one girl ask another. den she ask ea other. wahow u wanna settle. wanna call ppl down settle or not. den i was thinking to myself. u dun act big la. u wan call u call lor. i see whose gang big. cos i intend to call back school. den she nothing to say. den she walk off tat tym say. wah lau eh. si bei guai lan. chee bye. fuck lorhs. hu she think she is lohs. den i called mr.Ang... den he say he ask mr.Seet come down. but he come down oso no use. cos nvr do anithing oso. jus talk onli...

jus "quarrelled" with my mom. she say she spend her salary on clothings. but i onli bought one set. den i say my clothings leh. den she say tat tym give mi $50 y i nvr go buy. den i tell her she nvr give mi recess money. den she duno say wad.. sighs..

i'm feeling so depressed now lorhs... haiz. i duno larhs. everything is failing mi... i knoe the accounts tat one is my ttitude problem.. haiz. but hors. other things is lyk......... sighs. i realli feeling veri depressed right now lorhs. haiz. i feel lyk talking to someone... but no one is there.. haiz..

yea. i am back. i am gonna update my blog lyk twice / thrice a week lohs. am gonna online. but not gonna update. am getting lazier nowadays. haha. as in online stuffs. haha!

i find tat i come home immediately will do hmwk one. and there is no hmwk i missed lohs. not lyk last yr.. fcuking slack. and again.. school.. hehe. NGEE ANN POLY!!!!!!!!!!!! haha. saw ronnie. not william. haha. luckily.. HAHA!!! =X den online tok to ronnie. he says tat ECH is quite an ulu subject. and CO oso veri ulu. haha. i am going to make MIRACLE. hehe. aniwae.. i MUST get lyk 20 and below for L1r4. tat is my aim lohs. i cannot get 22 or smth. cos hors. i scared cant get in.. so yeap! means on average of 4 for all the subs. i can do it! haha. but i scared my english... ji ta lan. LOLs. =X

hmms. met dear on Fridae. haha. hmms. den so maluating lohs. the cinema.. lyk waste his money.. veri wad u knoe. sighs.......

den yesterday had gu zhen class. haha. Candice mus be jealous. haha! it was pretty alrite. hehe. den erm.... went chinatown. wth!! i saw the bag i wanted and its onli $40. so fucking cheap. moi momma says after new yr.. but i wan it now... maybe i buy myself or smth. hiaks. or would someone buy for mi please... i'm gonna change my wishlist. hehe. look out for my wishlist.

todae!! gonna watch movie again... hehe. and erms... eat at nooch. *pheeweet* hehe. i have been waiting. thanks dear!! ((:

and erm.. valentines coming!! i think i'd be celebrating with him on Sundae ba.. yea.. i hope i haf little surprises here and there.. wad kinda surprises?? haha.. dun tell. ((: but if he knows wad surprises i wan, he maybe would do it ba.. but judging from him.. his thinking.. his reaction.. I DOUBT SO. haha. yea. new yr is coming soon!!! haha. i nid one more set of clothings.. as in one more shirt and a skirt/jeans to go with. yea. tats all ba..

i mus wash my hair.. let it dry naturally........ so tying is more fang bian.. and den.. 2 go out of the house.. den gang gang hao. hehe!

aniwae.. am logging off now. ((:

yea. so long no blog. everything is fine i suppose... erm. audition is fine. it's on Monday. holy shit. but it's over. yea. so...... tat week was.. i forgot. HAHA! yeps. den.. Fridae's CO my gu zhen was SHIT. i emphasis, SHIT. yes. my hand was trembling and those stuffs. came out wrong beat. wrong notes. bla bla... yeaps. den Saturday didnt go out. wasnt realli happy abt it. den sunday went out. erms.. kinda quarrelled. duno y... always so mani girls calling him. i feel so wad lohs. den he say isst tat he mus del all their numbers den i am happy. i mean lyk.. come on lohs. u bear to del den say lohs. dun tell mi empty words. den Saturday i sms him den he tot i his mei. how fucked i feel lohs. jus feel so fucked lohs. yea. i wanna revenge. but, for wad? yea. wad for. i mean.. i dun think he gets jealous over anithing. and i think he is finding mi childish and blah stuffs. aiyaa. dun care le lohs. and. he's such a blockhead with the least romance included. yea. forget it...

tml visit to ngee ann poly.. so cool. i cant wait. yea. early childhood. i hope i dun see Ronnie or William. or i'll run off lyk shit. i will shun them off. luckily i change number they duno. -smirks.

erms.. i feel tat.. relationship wise.... i am comment-less lohs. but tat Sunday was kinda funny yeps. sms and those stuffs. yea.. actually he was sweet larhs. haha. i shant ask much. yea. erms... i duno lehs. jus feel lyk... sometyms i tell him sch things. den lyk he keep on ya and all those. and his reply tells mi tat i'm so friggin childish. yea. sighs. maybe it's all wad I feel. I is very impt here. i dun see things as WE. sighs. but how u wan mi to lyk not worry when so mani girls calling him lehs... haiz. and lyk... all tell him his probs. so fucked. yea. tats wad i feel. but he feels tat jus frds loh. i shall TRY to remain and think tat its frd lohs. sighs. but i veri wad one lohs. so petty de. sure will not think tat its frd even tho i knoe it is. especially if it is her. DUHS!

someone has been miss calling my phone. and i cant hear the phone cos its so soft lohs. and tyat tym got number. i dare not call back. now no number. more worse. i think its the gu zhen teacher. yea! i going bak for one last lesson before i am ready for the SYF. yeps. so sadded. cannot see her le. i think i'll miss CO alot alot.. sighs.. miss it lyk shit lorhs. =\\ sighs.

i nid to get so mani things... sighs. i nid 2 shirt. 1 skirt/jeans. 1 sch bag. 1 pencil case.. sighs. my bag i scared any time spoil lohs. den jus now i tell my mother. she say y i nid to buy so mani things. cos on sunday suppose to buy things. den was kinda spoilt by the quarrels. so i spent the money. left $30. den my mom say spend so much. den i was lyk i keep staying back in sch. and yesterday i spent $10 on the pasar malam food for them lohs. so much for being KIND. den she say lyk i use so much den suppose to buy clothings bcome i use. den she say i hafta wait end of the month when she gets her pay. den i was lyk hu ask u buy her shoes until $120. i mean i was referring to my sis. yea. so ex lohs. den she came in. den she say she wanna look at my bag. den i was lyk dun wan la. i dun wan buy oreadi. i was kinda pissed. den later she say i throw tantrum. fuck shit.. den she say $30 buy sch bag. where to find sch bag which is $30 now u tell mi.. i am eyeing the one at hereen. it's $60. wth...... i haf $30 with mi. den if together $60. but if i use and buy bag without telling her, i'd be scolded lyk hell. yea. aiyaa.. duno lahs. headache!!

dear is still out with Thomas i guess. and i think he will call mi but onli talk awhile. i shall be mighty pissed with him. jus wait and see. hehe.

i duno wad brought the sudden change. but i cant stand u sometyms. i do feel lyk telling u straight in the face. but i fear the consequences. if u can do it, y cant i? we r both humans and we haf both our rights. u dun need to show off to mi cos i, too, haf wad u haf. maybe u should cherish it more than to flaunt it. and, tats the thing any partner should do.

hmms. yea. muahahahas. yesterday's flag day for the tsunami is totally tiring... yea. hafta go door to door. and some were pretty generous. some looked at the peep hole and pretend nothing. wth. they're sooooooooooooo ... haha. yea. selfish. den si hui had no partner. so she went with mi and steff. yea. den when we finished our blocks, we hafta go to hers. den later at si hui's asigned blocks, we were tired and worn out lyk shit. den we sat at the stairs and waited for her. went down every level when she finished one. yea. i pity si hui. not much peeps donated to hers. and some even said tat donations are not supposed to be knocking at the door. but come on men. we're doing it for the admirilty CC. and if it is ILLEGAL, y would they ask us to do it. ZZZ! den went for lunch at vista. den went bak to sch and returned the tins and went home.

on the bus home, Tinghui took the same bus as mi and we're both talking abt the CO audition. he says tat Juliana is the onli one tat passed everything. yea. so scared........ i scared cannot go SYF u knoe. sighs. i mus bring my zhongruan home and haf intensive trainig. tml is di zi's turn. SCAREDDDDD. veri soon will be plucked string. he cant probably audition the percussion cos they haf jus the right amt of people... Flavian says tat they may finish within 1 or 2 hours. die... means will haf other grp. cello and base is Wednesday. means PLUCKED STRING might be with them too!!!!!!! AHHHHH!!! *screams. sighs. nvm. so much for tat... den he oso said tat got one guy in Erhu went audition den mr.Goh ask him to leave cos not good or smth. den he still so thick skin ask mr.Goh wanna hear other parts or not. wth... go den go liao lah. still hear wad song men. omg! aniwae, mr.Goh said he didnt wan. so yeah. he went. reached home bathe and online awhile den go out to TPY to find dear liao.

den reach TPY was abit lost. den i remember its last tym the shop and save there. so i jus walked. i saw the second mcdonald. den i saw the place where they haf the shop and save last time. so yea. i went and saw the place. i was delighted. hell yea! ((: den i went. den door close. i dun dare go in. den i walk one round den door open. i sneak in. den its actually they hadta close the door. =.=" so much for my cowardness. zzz. den i was there. i didnt see dear and my spects was in the care centre. so i was a blind mice. yea. and i heard those ppl behind mi saying tat the order is by alphabet of name. so tat time was j or something. den i was lyk eh~ mus be dear's turn soon. den true enough. i saw him. yeps. hehe. was rather happy. den i stood there see. ok. mani ppl blocked my view. den i hafta shift ard and ard to see him. yeps. den dear look so cute. haha. lyk small boy. HAHA! den he went bak to his seat. den i sms candice ask her to call mi so i can go up and seat. or else i would look so gong. den hors. woahs. stood there lyk an hour plus going to 2 hrs. den i bo bian go seat. in the end candice didnt call. it was a da kai yan jie. yeps. sme weren't tat good. some were nice. yeps. den dear saw mi. ask mi go down look after his things. yeps. den later he went for sparring. WOAHS. those few front girls hor. shout so loud. den quite violent oso. den got one guy shout yeeha! haha. lyk cowboy. HAHAHA. den got one angmoh guy. he veri act seh. den hor. got one black belt helper spar with him he fell and everyone was lyk clapping. well, he deserved it. hu ask him act sat sat den fall down. angmohs are angmohs. -no offense yeps. den went to dear's hse to eat. den went home. on the way home, fell asleep. so nice to sleep on his arm again. yeps. den reach le. he woke mi up. den went home. den sleep.... oh yea. did i mention i FELL DOWN. it's so slippery and my shoes didnt haf friction animore. woahs. damn pain and paiseh lorhs. and i was still laughing. HAHAHAHA. so stupid of mi. and i was lyk screaming. i mean, i didnt onli fell. it's at the stairs mind u. i fell at the stairs den i slip down one step. i was lyk wad the fuck. so pain. woahs. den the girl infront of mi ask if i was ok. den i was lyk it's ok. nvm. den i faster walk off. woahs. pain lyk shit. den now still pain..hmms. nvm. wad is my fats for. HAHA.

ok.. it's high time i do my hmwk. bye peeps.

haiz. my elder sis is back. and i fucking hate it. y my mother everytime pampers her.
and i owaes get the scolding. haiz. duno lah. den i told him. all the things he said is the same. haiz. forget it larhs. everyone and everything seems to dislike mi. i shall still live with it lah. tml got CIP. collect money. so early in the morning. ppl would prob bash u up for waking them up so early jus to donate to u. haiz. i am HEARTBROKEN. bye.

as said.. i am back. sch has been alrite. the new addition to my class, Daryl. is soooo AP. and guai lan lorhs. the worse thing is he understand chi so we cant say anithing abt him. *er herm. haha. ok larhs. he kept disturbing mi. den woahs. buay ta han. luckily i wasnt the onli one disturbed. muahahas.

we got the o level question paper for the artefact design for DNt liaos. this yr's theme is transportation. i duno wad to do lehs. last yr was entertainment. =\\ sighs. i duno wad to dooooo. haizzzzzz. sian diao.

as expected, KIND teachers gave us longer dates to hand the work up. muahaha. thank god. hehe.

class chalet on 11-13 Mar. hehe. i am looking forward to it. ((: can;t wait. i hope we can bring our own frds there tho.... and i hope we would get the bungalow we want!!! haha. so we can ENJOY. ((:

mi and dear... erms.. i duno how to describe. he says he is tired. still can play game. all those blah stuff. are all this lies? i chose to not think tat it's lies. i dun care le larhs. girls can contact him. he had better be automatic. and erm.. i do feel tat there is lyk a gap. i knoe he is tired and all. after all, he is working. i shall try to be an understanding gf.. but i cant tolerate and would throw my temper when he has not enough time for mi.. haiz. he no game den he will call mi. got game play den he wun call mi tat early. and would onli talk awhile.. i realli realli cant stand but throw my temper... haiz. he sms-es lesser now... hmms.. good thing is can save bill. bad thing is phone veri quiet. positive is he is busy. negative is he had forgotten abt mi. haiz. i worry tat feelings might fade. sighs.....

my stomach aches lyk shit now. i think i'm having RED sighs. not feeling veri well. feel veri cold easily... haiz. =
i darent load ani stuffs. cos alortsa internet police... god bless mi.

i hope everything goes well for all. gd luck for O and N level takers. and those streaming too~

i'm feeling so cold. i guess i gonna be sick. this few days fan blow oso will cold. at night no fan oso will cold. haiz. no one cares for mi at all. i shall update more later. by 9pm. do check bak for more or something. i am not in a good mood either. i'll find something to cheer mi up. i hope i can hopefully... haiz.

will u make mi happy again?

haiz. i knoe u nvr read my blog. and even if u do, it doesnt seem to change anithing at all. sighs..

yes. its early morning of my sec day of sch. i haf changed form teacher. sighs. the rajakumar. walks lyk a penguin. tiong xiong qiao pi. disgusting. =\ and she gave mi 2 admin stuff to do. i gonna hand in to her tml. since i not seeing her todae. todae got orientation prog den need to perform. =\\ sighs. sian diao... ar hu audition oreadi start le. die. how can i ever survive. =\\ sighs.. i duno wad to type le. jus a short update onli lorhs.

i wanna tell u tat, it's not a sin to play your LEISURE. but u knoe this past few days i've been waiting for ur calls till late night? and sometyms u wouldnt call. wouldnt sms. u knoe how i feel or not. when i need u, u ignore mi. do u knoe u react so differently? look at ur pathetic financial state. u're not living off ur own hands and u wanna play and loose greatly after tat. onli when u're happy already u call mi. how mani times i ask u not to go out? in the end u still did. wad is this? y mus i listen to u yet u dun listen to mi? cos u'll feel ashame tat ur gf is controlling u isnt it? if i dun care, u say i dun care. when i care, u'll find mi a NAG. lyk someone old bitch barking her lungs off u. since u dun wanna call and sms so much right. fine. i shall neither sms nor call u. u lyk it tat way right. girlfriends are for extra purpose wad. free liao den come and find. not free den go find OTHER PEOPLE. oh yea. her burfdae is coming isnt it. wouldnt it be a great chance for u to PROOf your worthiness? i dun think u'd be reading this in ani case.

i havent do my dnt. lalalala. George says can hand up by the end of this week. Alf called teacher and ask. so i think ok ba.. i oso duno how to do. i dun even think my product is suitable!!

yeps. 2004's gone. i wanna do a sum up on it. ((:beginning of 2004, a new yr. new environment. new classmates. new subjects. new people. new teacher. i dun lyk the people in my class, to be honest. some of them, it was tat kinda physical-based judged result. everything seems to rush by so fast. catching up with subjects in sec 3 isnt as easy as it is for sec 1 & 2. everything seems so maxed up and being newly introduced to those stuff, it kinda seems stranger to you though. first quater of the yr, i haven known myself. i try to get things done to get things passed half way. i nvr did my best in everything. a quater has gone.

the next quater was pretty hetic. frds coming in and out of ur life. nvr had permanent ones. except for Abigail ((: . conflicts. backstabs. betrays. hypocrite. all was there. all in 3 months. it was pretty much a headache. a state where u duno hu to believe. hu to trust. it often leave mi with loadsa thinking. isst my fault? guys come and go during the past 6 months. but someone i can remember is haikuan AKA sianboy. i think onli Emily will know ba. he was pretty sweet. he's tall too! but my stupidity took over mi and he was never mine again. nvr see him or heard about him. i wish him all the best.

a start of the next half. nothing much changed. except tat the SOMEONE hu betrays was trying to get even more hardcore. and i knew someone new. my darling. he was pretty sweet too. but it nvr last long. my birthday drew near. and i tot someone wouldnt gave me present. she did. yeps. she even treated mi lunch. i was realli happy. is it tat she have realised? or is it tat i have known hu is better? or isst tat the SOMEONE isnt there to spoil us animore? a few weeks later. mi and her were back close again. as close as ever. yeps. it's Emily. abigail and mi and her was mostly seen around. until Melody came by. she was with abigail most of the time. which made mi and emily the mighty duo. mega concert came by. a great time spent. time pass me fast. it soon came to the last quater of the yr.

i've grown to be thinking more better. the SOMEONE actually backstabs us even more. but not animore is she gonna stand a chance. people finally know her true colour.. everything was cleared. but i guess they still doesnt lyk mi. but! i pondered on this... this SOMEONE is in the popular grp. and people there knowns of her being. y did they still carry on with her. jus then i knew the answer. they were lyk mi! thinking tat she have changed but infact she hasnt. for 3 yrs, we've been duped by her. rolling us around lyk fools. Abigail is soon leaving by then... and she was closer to us due to misunderstandings between her and Melody. yanqin was beginning to draw near to us. but with alortsa changes we see. known better people in CO. yeps. mandy. jing yi and jing si. they were the funny peeps i've seen. i began to work more harder. no more jus passed stuff. i see a improve in my results. abigail left. i was pretty sad. she was the one hu knew wad my probs was. i shared it most with her. i talked to her lyk we've been buddy for a long long time. she was the one hu gave mi encouragement most of the time. but she's gone overseas. i could onli wish her the best. may she strive there. relationships has been turning sour. things happening. trust. love. feelings. jealousy. are we even meant to be? shall i hold on? and and!!! i learnt gu zhen. i'm so happy about it. yeps. did myself proud. but someone is always there to wa ku mi. am i right emily? and got closer to someone whom used to be a frd and to a stranger. hope we're frds again.

i guess this is my life of being a 15 yr old. i guess it has been a fruitful yr. knowing ppl. seeing through people. knowin more people. understanding people. learning things new. i hope the better for this yr. i'm gonna do a thank you list [for onli a few ppl cos i dun haf much frds. also duno will they see or not. hmms...] followed by a reolustion list.

Dear
hmms. i put u first lehs. i good or not. haha. hmms. i jus wanna say tat this 7 months have put us through alot. i realli hope we'll pull it through the end. i noe i am petty and unreasonable sometyms. but i sometyms cant stand wad has happened. jealousy has taken over mi most of the time. but it's every girl's reaction. i may be tolerant of it at first. but i shall not accomodate ani longer. i feel tat u would have known mi long enough to knoe wad i lyk and wad i dun lyk. y do u still oppose mi and do things i dun lyk. make mi angry and all. and u shout at mi. so are u trying to make urself sound so right all the tym? there is always a limit. i dun lyk u to do things behind my back. u either do things infront of mi or u dun do it. i cant stand ur ignorance sometyms. i put no interest to wad i'm talking about. u neither react to wad i'm talking which makes mi sound lyk so dumb! sometyms when i'm talking halfway, u cut through it. i'm talking something serious with u and u talk to me about your game. i feel veri much lyk a fool sometyms. this few days, SHE has been contacting u. i mean, once or twice nvm. but how mani times in a week. would u lyk it if HE sms-es mi everytime too? and i forgot to tell u. on tat fateful monday, he sms-ed mi he was sorry and tat he wouldnt contact mi animore. which is pretty true up to date. when i told u i will sms nastily to her lyk how u did to wilfred, i saw how ur face changed. it seems as though she is veri important u knoe? have u even spare a thought for mi? jus bcos u're in the fit of anger, u can get everything done ur way. wad if u regret? will u even regret at first? u couldnt promise tat u'd lie to mi again. wad is it telling mi? nonetheless, i still wanna thank u for tolerating my childishness. u said tat i nvr told u anithing. here am i. i told u everything. i hope u're able to take the truth. and i can say tat things i said here are some things i brought up to u before. love ya. muacks.

Emily
heys. hmm. this yr has been alort for us too, tat pig trying to spoil us all. thanks for being there for mi everytime. thanks for those laughter when i'm down. i knoe u're also tolerating my nonsense sometyms. sorry yeps. i hope we'll be even better in tym to come. sharing our joy and pain. we shall work hard for SYF and for the O's ok? we shall keep in touch even after our sec 4. love u heaps. -hugs. *muackies.

Abigail
hello! i miss u alorts. i dun think u'd be getting to see this getting to seeu online is pretty difficult! haha. aniwae, i wanna thank u for listening to my problems and helping mi with my sch work. and of cos. laughing with mi all the way during CO. all those sharing we did, i truely cherish. all the times we had, i will remember. miss u alort alort. -hugs & kisses

Audrey
hey! nvr tag my board liao le.. actually this one oso for keline one. about the mega thing. haha. still remember right? haha. =X aniwae, dun keep things to urself yeps. it;s not very good. and talk more. dun be so quiet. haf more confidence in urself ya. dun always look down on urself. see ya in sch. and erm. work hard for the CO audition. ((:

Yanqin
heys. i've seen u changed alort. but i hope the changes are good for u. do work hard and dun skate too much ah. maybe after ur N and ur O u can get a job there. den u can oso make money at the same time. haha. wish u all the best. study hard. dun play too hard arhs. ((:

Jingyi + Mandy + Jingsi
heys. i dun think ani of u is gonna see this cos i got none of ur contacts! haha. nonetheless, i wanna say thank u for bringing laughter to mi during CO. ((:

Michelle
hey darling. ((: i hope everything turns out well for u too. dun bother about those ppl yeps. they'll onli make u sad. think of mi! u'lll be happy. haha. hope to see u soon. one day we mus go out together with emily and fel to rock the whole place down yeps! haha. and hor. u go Taiwan got buy things for mi or not.. hahaha. miss ya! -muacks

Candice
hey mei! haha. how can i forget u. u've been there always talking to mi and making my time online bright. u haf always cheer mi up with all the jokes and all. and sometyms our jokes are so silly. haha. yea. hmms. thanks for listening to my probs too. although sometyms i knoe u can do nothing to it, listening would be jus fine. this yr u're in double sci lehs. do workhard okaes. dun get so corrupted yarhs. miss ya. -kiss

Classmates
i knoe neither of u will see this. haha. except some? haha. wanna thank u all for those nice time in class. tml sch open le. i knoe alort of u all haven do work. mi oso lah. haha! take care all. let's work hard for all the big and small exams and make no teacher look down on 4E3!!!

Schoolmates
this is to the others i didnt mention. thanks for all those smiles i see when i pass by u all. it cheers mi up. smile is contagious. let's work hard and make the sch value added once again. let's hope for no more donations. haha! ((:

Resolution:
slim down
study hard
less time for computer and online
find a job after O levels
more better with dear
work hard for the gu zhen

i think tats all. till then. see ya folks! need to go church. i am so mighty late!!!

HAPPY NEW YEARR!!!!!!

HAPPY 7 MONTHS DEAR!!!!!!

i will love you with all i have. muackies~

i will update later after i come home from meeting dear. todae 7mths anniversary! yea!!