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Arggg, aftnoon den go my'nite beauty slp' 4 nw, dun say le.. Yesterday K K give me his X-gf blogspot URL.. Actually he dun wan 2 give 1, but i reali curious how she gonna 2 write n say.. So in e end, he give me.. B4 i go read, i go tag in her taggy board n i say her since they already break off le n he wun patch wif u, Y cling on?? It would b more painful rather u jus let go.. Den she reply tat she is LEARNING 2 let u n ask me 2 read wif understanding.. Her frend also say ask me 2 read b4 tagging.. E lastest new i noe she haven't even updated la.. Wat happen 2 them, i noe.. Wat she noe i also noe, wat she DUNNOE i also noe.. In short, i noe everything more den she DO!! I noe 3 yrs relationship is enough 2 kill a person wen they break up, aft such a long time 2gether, aft break up unless is those already no hope 1 or else sure need a lot of time 2 get over n she still cannot accept e fact tat they break up.. Still mgs K K tat he dun haf 'feelings 4 her le??' 'He dun luv her le??' 'She will wait till his exams over..' 'she still miss him alot..' 'Y he ingore her??' everyday.. Den wen K K take out all their photos frm friendster, she ask him 'y he take them out'.. KaosS, she does haf abit like yiwei..

I admit there 1 time i at Far East plaza cry until like hell, begging him 2 patch.. =X hey is not bcos i reali wan 2 b wif him.. Is i wan 2 get even wif him ar!! I already hate 2 walk town area alone le, he still put me like a fool, holding my hp screaming n demand where is he n he tat idiot still bluff me n walk e whole Far East.. So since my 'face' already give him make until like a mad girl liao, so beg him n make a din 2 patch wif him doesn't matter 2 me le.. So in e end he agreed 2 patch wif me.. But later at nite i break up wif him.. Den it was his turn 2 beg wif me.. Hehe.. Times wif him always break n patch 1..

I can't say is entirely her fault 4 tis breakup, sumtimes is also tat stupid K K fault also.. but she cause it herself 1 lor.. Being 'Da Xiao Jie', asking 4 a breakup 4 little things, wanting attention is wat a girl ar best wif in a relationship.. But 'OVER'-use of them may end up quarreling or worst breaking up.. N she all over use.. I also did tell K K tat she is only a 17yrs old small ger.. U can't expect her 2 b mature 1 wat.. Is not tat time yet, he say but she also can b like tis like tat 1 ma.. So i L L lor.. Gf is his, wat ar his expectation i can't say anithing but i can tell him e girl expectation n his gf expectation everytime give me hit a bull eyes 1 bcos i been through all tis wif tat yiwei lor..

na bei. fucker. PFF! i will comment on this soon enough. jus wait and see. fucker. i am extremely pissed wif the red / orange ones. na bei leh. i will type about this when i cool down. dun wanna act harshly. but also wanna thank her for looking things my view la huh. but, however. FUCK!!!!! my dream was true. fucker. i put the original there. got the name and all there. dun say i humji..

i apologise for the double post the othger day

hmm. i duno wad to typse on a serious note. hehe. not in the mood la.. hahahaha! post some pics later at the end. muahahahahahahaha!

a pri sch frd sent mi a msg on friendster.. on the first look hor. i tot it's my neighbour leh. den i was like WOAHHHHHHH! HE ADD ME!!! lol. despo rite. den tat person add mi on msn. den i ask who is he. mus act blur la. den he tell mi is my pri sch frd. omg lor. he changed alot!! so slim now leh. den so handsome. omg omg omg!! *faints. envy him ah. hahahaa!

okiee. post some pics.. today go pick up my shoes. yday did mani and pedicure. sit there like queen sia. hahahaha! okie la! pictures coming right up!!

i dreamt of HIM and tat slut together. HAHAHAHAH! fuck offfffff!

me ting and sharon

jamess! my fave

mi and candice.. at shinn's sch's concert the other day.

mi n jovan!! he is so tall now la. hehehe!

hahaha! ok la.. prev entry last line was random.

oh well calvin, i think u oughtta give ppl trust abit more. y r u asking ppl to tell u their problems while u hide things amongst urself? u dont find the nid to tell mi. ha! den i think i dun find the nid to tell u mani things either. u might disagree wif wad i said cos tats the onli thing u ever do. disagree things about u which is in the bad light. give it a thought. how ppl surrender under ur irritating questionings? how ppl tell u their problems? yet u?? crack under pressure by shunning us, or rather, me off. time and again i asked u wad happened. yet u didnt wanna tell mi and instead, give mi a veri irrespobsible answer. wad if i was u and u were mi? wad if things happened like this? i know u will try means and ways to dig info off mi. and beg to know the stuffs. but hell, wad is happening to u now? i might not be able to help u solve ur problems. but i will be here to listen to ur probs. this sound mushy. but hey, i think we ought to grow out tat dimension where friends of diff sex cant love each other as good friends. tats all i wanna say to u. u know mi well, i dun talk much to ppl who cant think with their brains. i made this effort to talk things round and about to u. so hopefully, i wish u can absorb this. think it over when u shit eat drink sleep play and everything else. think it over. a deep thought. are u who u wanna be bcos of this or bcos of this u become who u wanna be? are u changing situations or is situations changing u? think it over, buddy.

been long since i type a veri serious post. will do so tmr or tonight. hopefully. getting ready for work now. 4+ go work. so tiring.. find a man and get married to will solve my problem. my criteria not high la. hahahha! got job, got car, matured, presentable can liao. HAHAAHA! and u know wad.. my mum was asking mi to find a bf the other day. hello momma! i am onli 17. or rather, NOT YET. hehehe!

muahaha. today last day of work b4 i go on 3 days leave. muahahahahahahahaha~~~~~~~~~~~

this sat my sis's wedding. muahahahahahhahaha~~~~~~~~~~~~~
den sun is my cousin's 1mth celebration.. muahahahahahaha~~~~~

shiok shiok~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

but after tat practicum starts.. SUCKSSSSS~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

muahahahaha~ i am offfff~~~ muahahahaha~

siao~~

calvin tan sucks. hahahahahahah!

okie dokie. i am back back back. better than before. more tired than before. haha! half an hour b4 i go hail a cab to work. i'm working at 8 today. it sooo tiring for mi. haiz. practicum coming up soon. am pretty scared. cos the academic head is my practicum supervisor. hai hai hai hai hai. but i think should be ok ba. cos this time round it's onli pract 1.

this few days i kinda forgot wad happened. haha. but i will jus update briefly.

watched slithers 2 wif yz and calvin. free de. y not? hahahha! i will show u my assignment 1 day, calvin. and they both always fight over the tix money. so calculative. worse than woman. BAH!!

went to HIS house to return his stuff on sunday. i haf a feeling i will see his father and sis. true enough.. i saw them when i was about to go up. i walked away. but i think the dad saw mi. wadever.. den stupid POSB haven process my cheque then. hafta walk to the mrt station. den while walking there, saw his mum, dad, sis. i wasnt shocked or anithing. i wasnt even feeling anithing. i jus know it wasnt my fault. so, wadever he told his family, doesnt realli concern mi. i would have called his father if his sis wasnt there. candice also said tat the sis had a ________ face. and i didnt realli tell her much about the sis. this shows how much it goes to show she has a _________ face.

after tat went to watch chung cheng high (main)'s CO concert. wad a laugh lo. mi n candice. haha! candice i know u like her voice rite. u hear le u will ________. HAHAHAHAHAAHA! finally see shinn. somehow like wad i expected. pretty lady. haha! realised i miss CO alot!! gees.. where is the CHR alumni??

died my hair. rebond my fringe. for onli $55. haha! cheap ehhh?? red for fringe and brown for the rest of my head. not veri obvious brown. but veri obvious red. more like purple. haha! had no choice. i hafta rebond my fringe and the onli colour available for rebond and dye was RED. so, yea.. jus make do with it. i was kinda shock when the dye thingy was PINK ok. more like fuschia. i was like !!!!! but it turned out pretty well tho..

wad else is there to update?? i duno men. i've been spending money like no tomorrow. hahaha! i think my next pay come, i will hafta save it le. nothing much left for mi to spend on. hehe.

it's gonna rain soon.. feeling abit cold le. and............................................. today is the last day of class. am gonna miss those aunties and all until i meet them on 14 july. oh gosh. so long. but so fast. my bdae coming soon!!!!!

hehehehe.

i gtg return testimonial to ppl already. owe them for quite some time.

happy belated birthday to derek and candice~~

i am back after a long brk. i will tag on my board soon. ppl, RELAX! ok. i hafta go now. hehehehe. byeee!

If a picture paints a thousand words,
Then why can't I paint you'
The words will never show the you I've come to know.
If a face could launch a thousand ships,
Then where am I to go'
There's no one home but you,
You're all that's left me too.
And when my love for life is running dry,
You come and pour yourself on me.
If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you.
Tomorrow and today,
beside you all the way.
If the world should stop revolving spinning slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you.
And when the world was through,
Then one by one the stars would all go out,
Then you and I would simply fly away

The above song is if by bread. veri nice. should go listen.

read sandy's blog jus nice. how true.. make mi flashback. silly girl i am.

yday was a busy day. haha!

changed phone alr. to N6131. hehehe. veri niec phone. HAHAA! but i abit cant bear to trade my N3230. haiz. wad gotta go has to go.

den watched slitthers wif cal and yz. muahahaha. free treat. y not? den later slacked until like 12+ at BK. cos cal the ass haven eat. so, yea.. cab home. online awhile den slp...

today suppose to go to charlyn's sis's bdae. but i didnt wanna go. but the red packet wif mi. i duno wad to do men. tried to sms charlyn. but she haven reply. oh well.. will try to see wad i can do later..

my boss sms mi yday.. monday be at work at 2pm.. tues and thurs 11.30 start work.. until 7.30.. *faints. but i dun mind. HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE!

i love cosmas! hahahaha! he's soooo cute. =) will try to take pic of him tho. hehehe

tmr - church feast day
monday - observation at some childcare centre
tuesday - work
wednesday - study + work + KTV
thursday - work
friday - study + work
saturday - either go wif coursemate to msia or go wif stef to buy something
sunday - concert at singapore conference hall. going wif candice. WEEHOO!!! miss her loads.

my sis wedding is drawing near. i haven get anithing to wear yet. sighhhh! wad a bother! ok la. i think i better go hunt for food. haven been eating the whole day and its 3.30 alr. tata~

am here again. not to update. but to say tat.................................

i will not be updating blog pretty often. schedule quite packed

today got story telling presentation
tmr go some other childcare centre set up learning corners
saturday charlyn's sis getting married
sunday church feast day

how to train maple like tat????????? pangster come bak i sure die.

i believe i will do better than u one day.

i duno wad to type. not in the mood to type. left a few min b4 i go bathing and all. but, wadever..

sick n tired.

at least i pulled through for awhile.

wad do u think?

i'm not who i think i am. i'm not who u think i am. i'm not who u think i should be. i'm not who u think i will be.

wad do i realli wan?

wad makes mi so lost?

time keeps running. night keeps coming. days keep fading. everything still work like they do. they wont stop for u.

cherish time. cherish ppl ard u.

read a meaningful article yday given by my lecturer.

my after thoughts?

many many.

u cant please everybody. and even if u do, do they know wad u do is for them?
everybody can say wad they want to. it's up to individual to interpret it.
jus when u're veri down, small gestures are offered but it depends on if u're willing to pick it up.
jus when u're picking up small gestures, wad are the consequences?

maybe it's not tat mani. but i'll read the article again and type again. til then, bye!

jus had supper + dinner wif yk, yx, derek and cal. haha! yea. my food was horrible. it sucks alot.

after tat slacked at my hse's void deck. talked to cal. made mi realise some stuffs. do i realli know wad to do?

pondered upon a few other stuffs too. tmr i shall reflect in my blog in the morn. or rather, later. since it's 3am alr.yea.

gonna slp now. both of this weekend not free.
next wk onwards must work morning alr i guess. fri go zoo wif my kids!! i love them! haha

i love cosmas the most. haha. he was smiling at mi when i went in to the centre. wahaha! try to take pics of him. =)

i serisouly lack creative juices for my blog title. hahaha!

yea. i'm bak after a pretty long break. hmm.. continue from sunday?? sunday didnt do much. played maple with someone. ruch 3 lvls. he's crazy. omg. said tat will be lvl40 before he leaves for thai, but until nw still lvl39. and he's gone. hahaha!

monday. went to sch. went to work. wahahaha! i think i wrote in the blog about this huihui bitch. wahaha! on mon, ting and pris went to my centre to collect some stuffs. den later i told them who is huihui. wahahaha! den they say she look mroe like china girl. wahahha! sense of satisfaction. WAHAHAHAHA!

tuesday went to angela xu's hse. her hse pretty big. she shared wif us her probs. kinda saddening ba. sighs! but she is who she is today cos of wad she did last time. at least she is remorseful. sighs! having everything doesnt mean u r fortunate.. den the project finish, went to partyworld at orchard. LOL! until so late. bought slippers. went home.. on my way home, i fell down. haiz! stupid hole in the grass. sighsss!!!

wednesday.. went to the centre we're suppose to make over for our UPPE module. some stuffs cock up. mummy suat is so persistent.. sighs, i duno wad to say la. jus a project, and all their colours and tails and claws starts coming out. wad is this? early childhood educator u claim to be. but, where r ur values?

today going to angela's hse again. to finish up our props.. horrible horrible horrible!!!!

so tired.. i've been having veri weird dreams lately. i dreamt of ck, i dreamt of kk, i dreamt of a weird hse, i dreamt of mani mani weird things. i even dreamt tat my husband had 2 more wife!! omg. this is HILARIOUS. damn it. and i dreamt tat i was being bluffed into malaysia.. zzz! i haf this feeling tat someone is dead. someone i know. someone old of course.. maybe it's jus tat i think too much ba.

maple is down. damn it. haiz!!! so sian. sian sian sian.. i tot i should rush to lvl up. mus be lvl 60 b4 july 12. wahaha! still long.. =X

ok. i go do some other stuff. byeeeeee