disintegrate

rate

yes yes. CNY is like coming to an end. and if you ask me how much i got for my angpao this year.. all i gotta do is show you my watch.

haha. it's a looney toon series Tazamanian Devil watch. (: i got it at about $200. obviously got abit of money left but obviously, its gone too. hahaha! sold it to me at an offer. which is about $170. not a bad deal aye? bought it on impulse. kinda regret it. but nah! forget it. have alr bought it and scratched it. *heart breaks*

CNY was kinda boring cos the number of houses to visit decreased after my great grandma passed away. furthermore, i aint that thick skin to get so many red packets. get over and done with lor. i mean, i cant do anything aye!

my kids are gonna go for open house tomorrow. one of their classmates. hope they enjoy it. aint gonna follow them tho. hehe!

talking about work. i might be working full day soon. i do hope i take back my own class. hehe!

i am so darn poor nowadays. i duno why. its not as if i am buying some nonsense things. sighs!!! hoping for my next pay to be in.

i forgot what else to type. maybe i'll end with afew photos.

mummy and i

my nice hair

snake. taken at river ang bao 2007. looks like a snail. right?

audrey and i. i like her alot. haha. the picture quality sucks cos i editted it. it looks damn dark before i editted it.

muahahahahaha

i'm going to work now. (:

until 6.30pm. WOHOO!

Love loves!

i just came home after a LONG day.

Good night! (:

surprisingly, i dont feel the pinch after typing what i did in my previous entry. whatever it is. i stay my stand.

woke up early in the morn to go to the bank. had always wanted to change to another type of POSB card. which i did. the Go! card. yea. can use signature. muahahaha! so cool huh. :D:D:D

deleted quite a number of ppl off my frdstr the other day. and i really mean alot. from 29X del until 25X. haha. yea. people i dont know as well as those clubs and all.

oh well. i better get going to work. i just feel so LAZY.

I'm sorry baby. but if this is the time to let go, i think i will. time and again you've been leaving me behind with a pile of mess for me to pick up. although its not a very bad mess, i still pack it up and carry on. somehow, we just got back together. I'd do anything for you and when i said next time, i really mean it. i am not doubting you. you are the one doubting me. if you hadn't doubt me, would you have asked what you asked me? you told me i was someone close to your heart. but it doesn't seem so now. you come looking for me when you needed me and left me in a lurch when you don't. this is not what i am looking for although we started from this. to move on to another level? foundation? sorry baby. you just didn't build it well enough. perhaps it's not just YOU. it's us. we didn't build it well enough so it's beginning to fall apart. you've been threatening to leave me and i think I've had enough. if you need explanations for my doings, i will explain it to you. and i know even if i do, you might not believe me. whatever it is, maybe you only wanna hear what you wanna hear but nonetheless, i will tell you what i feel. if you don't believe me, i am perfectly fine with it cos i am living without you. and at the very least, i know i have done my part in explaining things to you. to accept it or not, it's really up to you. i am tired of all the quarreling. as much as i don't wanna leave you, i think i should.

sorry baby, i am leaving this time.

tomorrow going to escape with my cousin from China. wahahaha. maybe going to Istana. but maybe not. reaching escape at 10am. maybe will be there til 2 - 3pm. after which, to river angbao we go. might be meeting up with you know who. maybe only ba. see how.

better get sleeping now. my uncle coming at 9am to fetch me. *yawnz*

HAPPY

CHINESE

NEW

YEAR!!!!!

muahahaha. today was fine. except that i was very tired. came home at 12+am yday after the movie. and out of course. haha! slept at 1+am. woke up at 6+am. slept at my aunty's hse.

lazy to type more. enjoy!!!!

wahahahaha!!! todayyyyyyy is the eve of chinese new year!! i'm kinda thrilled actually. very excited as well. hehe! reunion dinner later. watching movies later also. watching The Protege with Mylo later. hehehehe!! been bugging me. then okay lor. haha. suppose to go on V day but he went overseas. so going today. hehe!

today, i spent my morning spring cleaning. actually not say morning la. it's just the few hours. suddenly have the urge of doing it. hehe!! let you see how MESSY it is.

my wardrobe. : )

clothes unkept lying on my bed.

clothes not worn for dont know how long.

my messy messy com table which never seems to be tidy for a day. haha!

my study table. this is a hell load of chore cos i have nothing more to throw. so its just like re-organising rubbish.

hehe! now now. isnt it tidy??

hehehe. i have sort them up.

haha. neat le right? but its gonna be messy soon. trust me.

haha. after re-organising my rubbish.

oh!! this is my box of earrings. haha. so many right!!! my favourite is the rabbit and star biscuit earring. as well as the pink and white round one. hehe! most of them bought from yahoo auction!

hehe!! den suppose to watch Ghost Rider wif YZ, steven, haresh and calvin. den cos i couldnt be on time den i told them i dun wanna go but YZ insist. so i met them at about 1+pm.

ghost rider is not bad at all. really enjoyed it.

i am very tired now. i think i shall go and catch a wink first.

i can finally fit in my marco polo collar tee. muahahaha. i haf finally jian fei chen gong. wahahahaha! aint i proud? yes i am. weeha!!

yes yes. V day. at home sleeping. he went overseas. just came back yesterday. was kinda pissed lo. wait til i really run away, i think he dont care either. oh well! i dont know. already say something will path out someday.

sweet talking and sweet talking. honestly i dont know what i want and i dont know what other people wants of me. i am like being toyed knowingly. gahhh. i dont know.

all i know is i gotta move my ass to work.

bye love.

haha. i suddenly have the urge to laugh at myself. when i first knew it, i thought i'd be agitated. but i wasn't. maybe i should feel a tinge of sadness, jealousy, anger and all the negative stuffs adding together. but, i actually feel happy for them. haha! maybe cos I've grown up? or perhaps.. at least i know someone who is really happy.. to be with their loved one. i don't know. looking back at how it was, i find it a joke. like what i said and what i did and all. it's really the past. really, really the past.

looking at the end captions at the bottom, it was somehow like me. haha. i guess, everyone have been through that stage. to me, it's like... letting someone know indirectly. like sort of attracting attention. i mean, to me la. haha. yea. i cant believe i am admitting it now. but, the more you think, the badder it is. if you leave it neutral, its very hard to not dissolve it. for me, I'd keep on talking about it. until i am sick of it, i get over with it. provided i complain a whole load.

tomorrow is V day. no date? of course not. haha! suppose to watch movie. but YK has work so the whole thing was canceled. was actually quite looking forward. but nah. i think not. this few days have been returning home really very late. and i am lacking of sleep. later gonna meet Mylo again. i hope he don't have any last minute recall. it really dampens my mood. i don't know who am i to him and i don't wanna know either. i mean. i wanna know yet i don't wanna know. i don't know how to explain this but if you've been there, you'd know. it's like afraid of loosing. ever since the other time, i really panicked. moshi did tell me that he thinks i am crazy for him. but... maybe... not yet. i don't know. I'm treating it more like a fling thing. but at the same time, i don't wanna be hanging loose. yea. oh well. the road will path out i guess.

i think i am fortunate enough. i have a great job, great family, great friends. and i have what i need. i don't need to worry about many things. be grateful for what you have is what they will say. and i think it's true too.

tomorrow is cookery class for my kids and we're making pineapple tarts. i cant wait!! hehehehe! and!! i gotta report to work earlier. it's kinda sucky. but for the kids, it's alright!! really hope they have fun. it's approaching a new year in the lunar calender. i still need to get the pumps and 1 top from topshop. hehe. i CANT wait for my pay.

teeheehee!!

changed blog song. it's darn nice!!!!

Tequila Sunrise by The Eagles

haha. this 2 days really kept me busy. pigging. wahahahaha!

yesterday, i was suppose to go church and teach. yea. so i did. but at the wrong timing. so embarrassing. and so, i went home and went out again at the right timing now. (: bought waffles for lunch. came home and slack for awhile before meeting YK and syabil for the innova JC open house.

it was kinda boring la. especially when it's so freaking hot. and my $10 wasn't well spent. or rather, wasn't spent. i only used like $5 on some cornflake cookie. but it was nice. hehe. was suppose to go to the haunted house but by the time we waited for Samuel and all, it's like closed. then they went to play the gladiator. see le also scared. much more play. wanted to wait further but i am kinda drained out. so i went home. to sleep. haha!

when i was home, i felt my cheeks were being tanned. it's like it got heaty and all. and yes. i slept. pig i know. but i really cant take it. for the past week i haven't been sleeping well and enough. despite my phone ringing continuously and countlessly, i just reached my hands and answer and throw it next to me. can you imagine. i am like so tired till i cant even move around. i woke up the pose i slept with. i woke up, have dinner and i slack again. wahahahaha! all the way til very late. was chatting with hb. wahahaha. talking about birth dates. okay la. i did forget his. but he remembered mine cos he had so many people to help him!! i had none la. he kept asking the others to ask me. i mean, i ask hong to ask him. he ask hong to ask me. it's like. . . indirectly asking myself when is his birthday. now i am so gonna remember it la. in case he drop bomb and ask people to ask me. then i really don't know what to do then if i really forget.

for today, i went to church in the morning, went for breakfast, went to NTUC, came home, slept, slack, eat. wahahaha. i spam frdstr testimonial too! to many many people. haha. which led to HK replying my very very very late frdstr message. the other time was an impulse la. so, not to worry. help my mum with the new year goodies as well. haha. was a success la. in case some people see me no up. chey!

now i am thinking to buy

the pumps

or to buy croc shoes

sighs. what a choice. i think i get the pumps first. hehehehehe!!!!

alright. i think i type till here today. (:

you said you wanna know me more so you know what hurts me and you wouldnt wanna do it again.but i think you wouldnt wanna know anymore. stop saying I'm someone close to your heart when you don't show it and i don't feel it.

oh well well well.

i dont know what to say. am here to blog for the sake of blogging again. hahahaha!

am so tempted to change blog skin again. as well as the blog song. wahahaha. i find that.. i have taken a liking for very loud songs recently. i don't know why. so don't bother asking. not like anyone would wanna ask it but. oh well!

have so much sweets in my bag recently. dont know if i can finish them all. oh well well well!!!!

haven't bought my new year shoes. have intention of wearing the heels that i tailor made for my sis wedding. but bit too high. so, i bought one on an auction site. wahahaha. cant wait to get the shoes. but of course must get my pay first. wahahaha!

yesterday i worked full day. so some of my colleagues couldnt go out and buy food. so they pushed me over to buy. =.=" so i had to follow the school aunty and ask her to bring me along and show me the way. now then i know those CBD area also got those market. haha. i know la. i am mountain tortoise. but now i know. hehe! very much like neighbourhood (duh! they have flats there.) so, yea. kinda like the feeling of returning home. hahahaha! i know i think too much. OH WELL! and ran afew errands as well. on the way so i am fine with it. altho i did grumble. hahaha! my boss was saying that shoes are getting lost nowadays outside our centre. so she told us to bring our shoes in. parent's shoes have been missing. those cheap cheap shoes have also been missing. so, it's better to bring them in. what am i talking? i don't know. LOL

have been kinda addicted to the song titled "snow (Hey Oh)" by Red Hot Chilli Peppers. it's the OST (official sound track) for death note. yea. a very nice song and a very nice movie. cant believe that all the main character died. i think it's something like Harry Potter. rumours has it that good guys are dying in the movie. so many would assume Harry Potter is dying?!?!?! no idea. just wild guess i guess.

alright. i gotta go. tata!

let me share a quote...

"A real man wants commitment and not involvement"

hmm. this is actually yuemin's MSN nick and i thought that it's actually very meaningful. don't you think so? what's commitment and what's involvement? involvement is like being a part of it. commitment is being in it. is it? i don't know. i mean. that's from my point of view la. you don't have to agree. and it's base on certain scenarios that i say this. what scenarios? don't tell you. HA! as if anyone wanna know. oh wells!

let's say.. you share an apple. would you want someone to bite the apple and throw it away for you??? or only bite and throw it back to you? something like that. commitment and involvement. complicated as it seems. but no. it's not.

yes yes. let me show you what i drank on Fri

sorry ah. i know the pics like abit too big. the top one is the bottle we drank. and the bottom one is with coke. trust me. it SUCKS big time. i mean the one with coke. prolly cos we had no ice. it just SUCK. i'd rather die than drink the mixed one. for the whole time i drank the original one. the coke one is... *puke*

alright. on Sat, went to my grandma house to slack. went to CWP for dinner and went to the pasar malam. they have nothing there luh. it's worse than the one for Hari Raya. really. it sucks. the choice of shops is hmm. not good. lol!

on sun, went to hougang mall for pedi and mani. really wasted alot of my time. like ALOT ALOT. oh wells. the outcome is erm. normal? i dont know. maybe i'm too fussy. came home at about 9+pm. watched my soccer and superstar. and started on my lesson plan.

hehehhehehe!!! my new boyfriend. wahahaha!!! but attached. >_< hai!! lionel lionel lionel...

Little Johnny was 7 years old and like
other boys his age rather curious.

He had been hearing quite a bit about
'making out' from the older boys, and
he
wondered what it was and how it was
done.

One day he took his question to his
mother, who became rather flustered.
Instead of explaining things to Johnny,
she told him to hide behind the
curtains
one night and watch his older sister
and
her boyfriend.

This he did. The following morning,
Johnny described EVERYTHING to his
mother.

"Sis and her boyfriend sat and talked
for a while, then he turned off most of
the lights. Then he started kissing and
hugging her. I figured 'Sis must be
getting sick, because her face started
looking funny.

He must have thought so too, because he
put his hand inside her blouse to feel
her heart, just the way the doctor
would. Except he's not as smart as the
doctor because he seemed to have
trouble
finding her heart. I guess he was
getting sick too, because pretty soon
both of them started panting and
getting
all out of breath.

His other hand must have been cold
because he put it under her skirt.

About this time 'Sis got worse and
began
to moan and sigh and squirm around and
slide down toward the end of the couch.
This was when her fever started. I knew
it was a fever, because Sis told him
she felt really hot.

Finally, I found out what was making
them so sick......-a big eel ;had
gotten
inside his pants somehow. It just
jumped
out of his pants and stood there, about
10 inches long, honest, anyway he
grabbed it in one hand to keep it from
getting away.

When Sis saw it, she got really
scared-her eyes got big, and her mouth
fell open, and she started calling out
to God and stuff like that. She said it
was the biggest one she's ever seen; I
should tell her about the ones down at
the lake by our house!

Anyway, Sis got brave and tried to kill
the eel by biting its head off. All of
a
sudden she grabbed it with both hands
and held it tight while he took a
muzzle
out of his pocket and slipped it over
the eel's head to keep it from biting
again.

Sis lay back and spread her legs so she
could get a scissor-lock on it and he
helped by lying on top of the eel. The
eel put up a hell of a fight.

Sis started groaning and squealing and
her boyfriend almost upset the couch.
I guess they wanted to kill the eel by
squashing it between them.

After a while they both quit moving and
gave a great sigh. Her boyfriend got
up,
and sure enough, they killed the eel. I
knew because it just hung there, limp,
and some of its insides were hanging
out.

Sis and her boyfriend were a little
tired from the battle, but they went
back to courting anyway. He started
hugging and kissing her again. By
golly,
the eel wasn't dead! It jumped straight
up and started to fight again.

I guess eels are like cats- they have
nine lives or something. This time, Sis
jumped up and tried to kill it by
sitting on it. After about a 35 minute
struggle, they finally killed the eel.
I
knew it was dead, because I saw Sis's
boyfriend peel its skin off and flush
it
down the toilet.

haha. got this from friendster. i paste it here cos i find it funny. haha. eel. LOL!!

haha. guess what time i reached home TODAY???
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6AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shiok shiok. look at the time now. i am SO AWAKE please.

yesterday met XY. wahaha. so long never see her already!! den we went around and got ourself lost in Vivo City. haha. embarrassing but i admit. we were walking around and around and couldnt find Long Johns so we settled for Yoshinoya. after that, bought coke, snacks and met Mylo.

went to sentosa. drink. drank. not drunk. haha!!! expected myself to not hold liqour so well but i think for first time not that bad ba. muahahahaha! we left that place at about 3+am or something and went to look for a toilet. haha. high tide. cant blame.

sent XY home and went somewhere. wahahahahaha. and he sent me home. reached at about 6am. showered, slept, awake now.

dont know if i should go teach church class now. sighs!!

i edited the profile part. but... i dont know what else to add. it's like... what about me? hobbies? likes? dislikes? GAH! i'll type more when i have more idea

feeling feverish now. and having flu. dont know why also. good thing that it's weekend already. so i can have a good rest. next week working at 7am. CAN YOU IMAGINE! goodness gracious me. for 2 days. sighs. but at least! AT LEAST! can go home early. muahahahaha.

alright la. i dont know what else to type. i just wanna blog for the sake of blogging. so, yes. you got it. blog for the sake of blogging.

blog blog blog.

hai. my wrist is very pain. don't know why. maybe sprained it. but don't know how. WEIRD!!!!!!!! =\

changed my blog's song which suit the theme. it's called

OVER THE RAINBOW

he he. nice aye? it makes me feel very safari mode. but i think it doesn't really tally with the blog picture. ha ha. anyways, its the song. so, yea!

today when i went in to the centre, i was like kinda mad. when i went in, it was shower time for the first class. so i had to be there. and because 2 teachers was on MC, which leaves only me and my Chinese teacher to take care of 2 classes. it can be very tiring. but its still the same i guess. after showering them, it was English for my own class. and i had to shower them again. =.=" i mean, i DON'T shower them. the auntie does the job. i only pack their bag and undress and dress them. after that, it was lunch. it was CHAOTIC men. i hardly can have time to eat. and i was alone. :'(

after lunch, was brushing of teeth. they did not have music today. neither do they have craft. felt so sorry. but there isn't enough time and HR wise is pretty low. so i only read them books, sang some songs and off they went to sleep.

washed their milk bottles, called up a parent and did some housekeeping. i hardly have time to myself today! goodness me. i just ran around and all. woke the kids, pack their stuffs, eat their tea snacks and off they went for Chinese lesson. had mass lesson today. 2 class both having lessons together. first was Chinese while i did some housekeeping and later English. sang them some songs again. glad that they participated tho. after that, it was gym time. nothing much happened. then followed by evening snacks and TV time until they go home.

all the while i was outside and the Chinese teacher was inside the TV room as she requested to. and one of the teacher from my next class was doing something and her kids were left unattended. i mean, i had to be there and i think the Chinese teacher ain't very glad about it. i mean, i cant do anything. can i? i had to disinfect, arrange the tables and chair, arrange their bags, get the keys, bring them to toilet, usher them to the bus and all. goodness. and the bus was late!!

but the best thing of all, i left early today. and i must say that the Chinese teacher is not very happy about it. at least that's what i think it is. oh well!

on a lighter note, it's Friday tmr. meeting XY. he he!! very long never see her. ha ha. sure got quite a number of stuffs to catch up. he he!

xu wei lun ~
Message: v rr sho0 sad n feel sry tuhh
heard
dat u're g0ne..
g0ne in a kes 0b accident

wish u can happie 0wish n b peace in d
heaven..

v w0nt 4gt u.
but still supp0rt u 0wish.

the english is so wonderful right!!! i did figure out what is she trying to write about. i wonder how they actually go about typing like that. *faints

i am off to work. bye bye! :(