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yeps. i'm back. yes. ((:

i guess i lucked out in school todae. had PE. i was complaining to Haresh + laopo + Daryl during the 1hr physics b4 PE. cos i dun wanna run. and i am fitted into this thing. TAF CLUB! horror! hu ask mi to be so fat. *pfft but.. never the mind. i am used to it. hahahaha! -smirks. den during PE the mr.Gerard went for the sec 1 camp i suppose. den i went with mr.Azman for PE instead. with the whole class. it's kinda horrifying. sighs~ lemme brief u on wad we did.

we went to the field. ran around it for one round.
we did stretching which includes stretching of legs, necks, hands.
we were seperated into 2 grps. and one hafta run the field while the other do some exercise with him. so first. push ups..
den we ran
den sit ups
den we ran
den burpeese or smth...
den we ran.

WTF! it IS tiring throughout. but i realli wanna thank my laopo and Daryl hu ran with mi and encouraged mi. Luna and cassandra and xinying and sandy and Calvin too! so thankful to them!!! although the Daryl keep disturbing mi but it's ok. it's usual for him. haha! i gonna write a testimonial for my laopo later. muack muacks for them. love them to the bits!

den came D&T. the mdm.Teo damn FUCK can. bitch. i went and wait for Emily. den later she was dilly dallying inside. which is as usual. so i'm used to lyk waiting. den we were late! wtf. den mi and emily and one more guy were onli a few steps behind her. den she turn to us and say ppl after her is late. so we tio. but we couldnt walk fast as there is those sec 2 who seems to block us here and there. DUHS! and i'm so huge. how u exoect mi to squeeze with them right. downright maluating can. den she *flip flop flip flop flip flop* talk alortsa rubbish. fucking shit. den Zinette said her excuse and she lyk duno say wad. den she say u all go in stand. den we stood at our place. Emily did apologise. but i was kinda pissed still. cos she morning assembly oso lyk tat. den in the end i wait for her tat time she with someone else. i might as well go off first right. arghs. no one understands de larhs. den i wanna go toilet cos it was urgent den she say bring her the work i did when we were left alone for free period. den i brought mine. she say not from home one. den i was lyk it's not. i let my frds see. they comment on it. den she say i dun understand the writing. explain. den i was lyk hello. i am urgent now. u wanna wipe for mi if i pee out now? den emily they all laughed. den i told her i'm gonna see u later aniwae. y not show u later. den she let mi off. *pfft. shit arse. i hope mr.Toh come back. i will not take him for granted. please God. amen!

sighs. next it would hafta be relationship. i find we're kinda drifting. and i knoe he finds mi irritating here and there. time and again. but i couldnt help it. he is not with mi most of the tym and i sms him he wun reply. i tried talking to him but in the end he hafta sleep early. den its the same again and again. he keep having last minute thiings.. all i ask for is a weekend with him. two days.... so diff? sighs. i dun understand him sometimes. to be honest.. i've been crying everyday.. lyk crazy. and i bet he doesnt knoe. cos i said.. he wasnt there. aniwhere. everywhere. ask him to buy herbal tea for mi todae when he coming over.. duno he gonna buy or not. i dun think so. hmm. ya. never buy. yes. jus reached. yes. nvr buy. forget it. i gonna buy myself instead. *pfft. maybe toime constrain.. although i try to understand... but most of the time i dun. i will run wild on imaginations. which is a big NO NO. cos i knoe everything will be ruin jus bcos of this. but sometimes i cannot help it. cos he is lyk not here whenever i nid him and he leaves mi alone. and i knoe tat he is realli busy.. but i kinda cant stand it sometimes.. i realli wanna brk it up.. but it kinda lyk... dun bear u see.. sighs. but i knoe i still love him veri much.. but perhaps i'll try to adjust to everything... but i feel tat after i know him.. i've been adjusting to mani things.. and i duno y.. i wanna go bak to the old me. i realli miss the old mi.. i realli do. yeps. but i somehow cant get used to this... i hope he will see this. but i duno if he would.. i jus hope he does...

i'm lyk crying now.. again... sighs.. forget it ba.. i'll get used to the surrounding..

mi and emily

mi and emily and sihui

yea. tats those neoprints. i knoe not clear. cos i purposely. haha! aniwae.. nothing much todae oso.

hmms.. i got so mani things to say.. but forget it la. i lazy to type oso. nobodi would be see-ing it aniwae. i mean the things i wanna tell this person. so.. forget it.

cried in sch. erms. dun ask mi y. cos i lazy to explain. hugged XY and cried even more. sighs. thanks to her. *bear hug*

wanna thank calvin + sandy + laopo and maybe yan zhen? LOLs! thank them loads.

yea. i am back again...

told dear i aint gonna online at nights. so i would refrain from quarreling with him. i dun think he has much time for mi as well cos past 2 days he haven realli been sms-ing mi. so i had to find my own source of entertainment. yes. tat is disturbing seah yan zhen. LOLs!! *opps.

didnt go for DnT test todae. after PC prog den stay in class with Darl and tok tok yak yak. den ask him acc mi to take test to u knoe u knoe la! haha~ den went there. he looked for mr.Thomas than to change topic first. so i looked for tan teck sin. expected.. he wasnt there. so i asked Daryl tag along with mi. cos i dun wanna wait alone for Emily. haha! den i saw her with Angela chan. luckily ask Daryl acc mi. or else i'd feel pretty left out u see. yeps!kept asking daryl something but he still dun wanna sae. haha~ am gonna innocently ask him things. LOLs!!! lyk wad he told mi about sihui. hahahaha. damn funny can.. LOLs!

todae PC is so fucked up. lyk DUHs! Rajakumar is being an unreasonable BITCH nowadays. i duno y. i duno how. she jus became one within lyk say...... few hrs?? nono.. it;s onli one hour. onli 2MT periods and she is lyk FUMNIG. RAGING. wad ever word u wanna use to describe her! yea!! cos Pc period we had to do this TOTAL DEFENCE shit. yes! the test. and...................... gues wad. we hafta fuckingly seperate tables? lyk wad the heck! it;s not gonna be reflected in a reporrt book or wad-so-eva. so... why seperate. it's onli 3 crossword puzzles out of which 2 seems to be repeating itself somehow or another. and the last one i onli fill in the blanks and was sleeping alreadi. didnt wanna highlight or circle the words. am so totally heck caring her. and yea! i slept and sleep and slept and sleep (???) LOLs! until lyk erm... 1:30. so i slept a big deal of half an hour. yes. and it seems lyk i slept for hours. LOLs! den i woke up. was staring blank. den toked to Daryl... bla bla bla. someone di siao mi. bla bla. den she ask. where is Fiona. den i was lyk DOTs. i know she slipped out.. but i cant possibly say she left right. so i said i duno. den i was looking at the door hoping Fiona wouldnt step in. or at least.. crawl in. LOLs! but she CAME IN STANDING! den tiffany more clever. she jump into class and squat down. so Rajakumar saw both of them and called them over and tok tok tok tok tok. waste time waste money. yea. so tat's Rajakumar. so fiona told her tat she was urgent and had no choice but to leave. so rajakumar ask y mus u bring tiffanny along with u. so tiffany said i wanna go as well. so rajakumar said. shut up. i am not talking to u. DUHs! y is she making a fool out of herself? tiffany answered her which is right wad. den wad u wan Fiona to say? alamak. den she say next tym dun go toilet during her period. den go during recess before sch after sch. DUHs! is she dub or something. or is she intellectually lacking smth. den Fiona says she wanna complain to mr.Koa. yea! so hmmm.... i duno she did or not. but i think my whole class is not veri hapy with her tho.. *pfft. tian xia wu ya yi ban hei.

okaes. so i didnt go sch on Tuesday. isnt it great. and there's test here and there and ppl didnt tell mi. wonderful classmates i haf got huh.

my rashes is back. totally cannot tolerate. i wanna buy snake powder. argh.. *scratch scratch*

so tml no CO. am going to library with Emily i guess. cant stand it. there is nothing much on the net. yea! sighs. i will do wad i can find first la.

tats so much for todae. bye~

yea!!!! i am back. my com is spoilt u see.. sighs. now onli fixed it back. SIGHS!!! *rumbles. the repairman is SOOO cute can. haha!

CNY is finishing soon. not much of the festive joy and atmosphere. but nonetheless.. ang baos are still there. haha! i didnt get to eat alortsa bak gua this yr. i reAlli love them. haha! *opps. yeps! this Saturday duno wanna go Dear's aunty's hse. sure paiseh de mah. i feel lyk going. cos i'd be lyk so bored., but.. if hafta leave early.. duno he will be happy or not. den later go there sure will be maluated de mah. right... *sighsss. duno larhs. i feel lyk he abit dun wan mi go oso. hmms. all craps.

yesterday valentines. wasnt realli good i mus say.. i think he now knows wad to do when i am angry with him. i duno if he knows it as in he knows or it's cos yesterday is V.day and he doesnt wanna mess everything up. but i mus say he is ... sighs. nvm larhs. next yr see how. but i think he'd still be the same. not romantic at all. as usual..

sch has been alright. except for tat fucking chee. she changes our seats lyk as tho she is our Form tcher!!! she sucks boy. SHE SUCKS. she cannot make it la! bloody bitch. she loves to act big. however.. she is alreadi as BIG as she is. PFFT. jus as irritating as ani ARSE is.

tml got chi and dnt test. actually is todae.. but lyk i didnt go.. i mean dnt test. supposed to be todae. yea.. so hmmm... gonna study later. after i clear the hmwk.. tml maybe come bak chiong SS. so no hmwk left. so far haf been passing my test. but overal for chem failed. jus bcos of my stupid mock exam.

i heard from tinghui tat they're gonna take a mock exam for phy. if they fail, they hafta register for combine science. yea. wish all of them luck..

gu zhen is still alright lorhs. luckily yesterday i nvr play wrongly. den i now knoe where is my sitting le.. infront. so front. sighs. i wish we can get a silver. or better.. Gold. ((:

aniwae. i;m off. if u see mi in sch tml with my left leg's toe abit out. please dun laugh at mi. cos i haf bandaged it. bye~

yawns..

love ya all~

back after a week. hehe. finally!!! yeps. nothing much happened over. except tat there wasquite a number of test going on here and there. managed to pass 2 out of lyk 4/5 of those i took.. phy chem eng haven take bak onli. i think eng confirm fail. cos whenever Rajakumar marks our eng work.. we're bound to fail. duno y. her level of english too high tat we can;t take it. ((:

pe is also hectic. hafta run ard tat track outside sch 2 rounds by 12 min. i was lyk wtf. so big and tiring. but i managed to pass by tat few seconds. haha! but he say mus improve on every run. yea~

hmms. SYF list out le. i think it;s bcos of gu zhen tat i got in. so it wasnt tat fair i guess. sighs.. i dun think bunny wan mi to play zhongruan for SYf. but i DIE oso wan leh. hiaks. wad is he gonna do? muahahaha!

so bored.. nowadays am better talking terms with sandy. but not with mingxuan. but hor.. sometyms maybe i would lyk to tok to her. but however, she would give this kinda face lyk i owe her $$. hu cares la. dun tok dun tok lor. i still remember shouting at her to not snatch ball during PE yesterday. not forgetting scolding her bitch. it's not tat i am all upset about my grp loosing or smth. but she snatches her own grp's ball and SCRATCH ppl. i mean who ever does it i am still gonna shout at them de mah. but i dun think ani of them in my class would do tat. i think if she scratched mi, i would gen ta mei wan mei liao. haha! but i wouldnt even wanna get near her! oh yes. Sandy was pissed with rajakumar and went to toilet to spoil public property. guess wad? she was being told to mr.Koa by someone. and they can claim innocense. how great of them. jus how hypocrite can this world get.

todae chinese lesson seems monotone and DEAD. everyone was lying on the table and falling asleep. of cos mdm.Wan wasnt happy. but it's lyk if i were the tcher i wouldnt be happy too tho. lyk y is my class sleeping when i'm teaching. but the fact is... she is pretty soft spoken and....... we were doing ting li. and u knoe how BORING those talks can get. yea~

DNT... i;m so gonna start off with all of those. i am getting abit few up or smth. lyk i dun realli get it. nvm. i think i jus do den cannot den let the Toh see and give comments.

i find tat i dun lyk someone in class. but shall bear with it. i knew some ugly truth abt someone. well, not UGLY but somehow... the truth. onli 70% of it. am gonna pursue the 30%. yea. ((:

hmmms... aint sms-ing much lately. cos dear's hp line was cut and can onli haf incoming calls. darn it. am so bored. but i knoe tat it makes no diff. but sometyms he can at least reply mi. yesterday during DNT den i tot dear SMS. cos it's his lunch time. but i knoe it isnt cos his line hasnt recovered! guess hu is it. t's stupid boy. and he jus sits next to mi. lyk next sit to mi. den i sms him todae in class during maths. kept miss calling to disturb him sms. haha! it's fun. ((:

chinese new yr coming. yea! going to dear's hse for visiting kinda freaks mi out. i duno wad to say to his parents. lyk u knoe... sighs. somebody SAVEEEEEEEEEEE me. bought puremilk shirt. love it to the max. yea!

am watching monkey god show now. see ya!

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