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i am still so tired despite sleeping in early (at least earlier than before..). yawnnn. i wanna sleep. :(

while sleeping, i received 3 SMS. my gawd.. wanna sleep peacefully also cant.. RAH! maybe it's me. i get woken up very easily.. hmmm... but i read the sms then sleep le. wahahaha.

oh well.. i need to go now. cya!

ooo. it is raining!!

thank god we came home earlier. if not i'd have been wet!

hehe!

no more afternoon class for me i guess..

sob sob! T.T

today..

I saw a monkey at the construction site downstairs while going out

scary.

I spent $100 at the dim sum restaurant (after dividing)

scary.

I finally went shopping with my parents

nice.

I bought a strawberry shortcake pyjamas for the pyjamas party in school this Friday

nice.

While on the way home, I saw a notice board from the police at my void deck appealing for witness to a robbery at my block.

scary.

i am feeling so fucked up. don't ask me why. i just feel fucked up. BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no. i am not PMS-ing
no. no one offended me

i just don't know what is so wrong. damn. not enough sleep? i think so.. and RAH!!! i cannot sleep at all!! all cos i am having diarrhoea.. shit ass. i hate it. since past few days.. just watery stool.. but today, it's been pretty bad. sucks.. i feel so dehydrated. i feel like scolding someone to let off some steam. BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am feeling so poor.. my goodness. tomorrow going to yum cha. let's just pray that don't exceed our budget.. AMEN!

sighs.. i think i will type my lesson plan and newsletter now.. since i cant sleep.. and neither do i have anything to do. i should listen to more Michael Bubble's song now.. so soothing. listening to loud music will make me flare up.

anyway, i am going for my Diploma studies very soon.. and! pay rise.. :D

okay. good the bye bye.

P/S: pay rise le still very low. cos must pay cut as i am going for course. *faints

i am so tired....................................................................................................................

but i know i can't sleep. so, yes~

am having running nose again.. sighs.. hope the others don't come along. someone please remind me to get my vitamins..

adios!

i dont know if i have announced.. but...

i've bought a new phone. MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

oh yes. i was quite happy today. i mean happy as in the kind where i know my friends still cared. haha. i dont know..

i saw Derek on my way out of the train.. along with Jianwei.. so Derek asked about my chalet and i asked if he is coming. so he said that he said he is coming ever since i told him about it.. which was about 1-2mths ago. haha. i felt like so satisfied.. haha. he was amongst the very few that were so on about it.. haha.

i realise i have 2 types of friends. close friends and not so close friends.. not so close friends, you tell them to CONFIRM their invites.. close friend??? you tell them and they will come.

example:

not close friend: i am having yada yada yada yada. please confirm your attendance by yada yada date.
reply: i will let you know.

close friend: i am having yada yada yada yada.
reply: okay.

maybe you dont get what i mean. maybe you do. oh well.. little things that brightens the day!

sub-consciously, i tell my children this: "nono. cannot. not nice."

and sub-consciously, i will use it in real life as well. of course minus the "not nice"..

let me tell you what happened today in class..

i tied my girl's hair very nicely and neatly today. and she scratched it which resulted in her hair popping out. (girls will know what i mean) so i hold her and i told her this "Giselle! why you scratch? you see! not nice!" and suddenly, she tell me "nono. cannot. not nice." WAHAHA! like how i normally tell them. wahahaha. funny ah that girl. my goodness.. hahaha!

what i say actually reflects.

oh well!

i am off to sleep with my wet hair.

good night!

hahaha. happy girl!!! i am a HAPPY girl!! :D

yday night went for dinner with my partners and supervisor. buffet leh. steamboat buffet. bought a dorothy perkins top to reward myself. :D for putting in so much effort. hahaha. i think i am not as slack in my work. hahaha. oh so hardworking now. :D

afterwhich, it was very early and i didnt wanna go home. hahaha! bad right.. then my supervisor brought us to a pub.. opened by her friend. went in, drank, drank and drank. hahaha. she say i didnt do anything there. only stare and drink. hahaha. never sing or play pool.. hahaha. oh well! i just wanna get the atmosphere mah.

after that, cab home. fuck lor. the uncle swipe masters AGAIN!!! na bei. $30++ WTF men.. argh! forget it. came home, my dad was wiping the house. imagine.. 3+am he wipe the house. wtf? then i sneak in and slept straight.

i woke up at 8+am. WTH right? hai. stupid body clock. _|_ and i went to take a shower immediately. honestly, i didnt smell the cigg smell on my hair until i shower and shampoo my hair. WTF man. it stinks like shiat. it's still stinking, now. ha!

and yes!!!

i am a happy girl today cos

i am collecting my SSC doll later
gonna see candice mei today!
gonna have dinner with my frds laterrr~
he sms! :D

hahaha. happy happy girl!

WEEHOO!

let me show you my life size strawberry shortcake doll. of course not the real one. but how it looks like...

haha!

exact hat, shoes, jacket, top, bottom. except standing position with the hands down. wahahaha!

i CANT wait.

i bought myself the life size strawberry shortcake doll.

i love myself.

i am so very totally drained out.

ever since Saturday, i havent had enough sleep. say.. Saturday night went for a drink. sunday i had to look up for some stuffs. monday met cal n yz for a dinner and became a movie. met someone else after that. slept only at 3am.. how nice. and since then, i have been up and looking for my stuffs online. haiz...

i wanna sleep all day. all night.

i am really very angry la okay. i can cry now! RAH!!! FUCK.

i hate it when things become like that. i don't know if is it because i woke up from the wrong side of the bed during my afternoon nap. but still, fuck.

i woke up from my evening nap cos my mum asked if i wanna go to Causeway point with her to meet my elder sis. cos my mum wanna get the phone if my sis decided to re-contract with Singtel. okay. fine. i didn't wanna go cos i thought my second sis would follow her. and when i woke up, it doesn't seem to me that my second sis follower my mum although no one was home. so i called my mum and she left her phone in the house. so i thought prolly she's with my second sis since she didn't bring her phone. after a Lil while, my mum came home and asked if i called her. so i said yes. i told her that i was wondering if my second sis followed her. so she said no cos my third uncle brought her out together with my cousin to eat. so, fine. i showered and followed my mum there.

on the way, we were discussing what to eat. and we couldn't make a decision. so i thought i meet my elder sis first. so we met at Singtel shop. she knew about the re-contract terms and made us go down?! WTF! wasted my time!!! i was already very fed up cos of a conversation between her and my mum.

sis: *explains the re-contract terms* (cos both my dad and her have the same line, either of them could re-contract. so, my sis asked my mum if my father was willing to do it.)

mum: (i think my mum thought my sis would do it.) then you re-contract lor.

sis: huh? (in that fucking tone like a rich answering the poor when the poor ask a favour of the rich.)

mum: *keeps quiet*

WTF? how on earth could she reply that? wtf wtf wtf!

so we left. separate roads to have dinner. and i was very pissed already okay. she replied like that. and i went to CWP for less than an hour just to don't know do what. WHAT THE FUCK MEN! totally wasted my trip and my time and my money! WTF!!!!!!!!! we didn't even eat there. fuck. and i was fucking hungry. na bei.. then later i decided to go eat Yoshinoya. and my mum asked if i had money. i have la. but i don't know if it is enough so i ask how much she have. she said she has only $6. i was so bloody pissed and i told her we'll go home. and i just walked off.

okay. my fault for throwing temper tantrums. i admit. i admit we could have ate 2 meals with the amount of money we both have. fine. and she did say she will go withdraw. but! by the time she withdraw the money, what time already? and the Q's at CWP's ATM is always fucking long. WTF!!!!

and when i came home, my father like ordering my mother. WTF men. i am just so angry at the way she was being treated. i was mean also okay. i admit. i shouldn't have thrown temper tantrums. i admit. but still, i just felt the pain when she was being treated like that. i was also one of the mean ones.. i feel for my mother. i really am sorry.. i hate things work.

and of all times, this bloody fucker had to sms me. and asked if i wanna go drink. obviously i wont cos i have got commitments tomorrow. not like i don't need to work okay. and he said to meet earlier. but cos i haven't type my lesson plan, i didn't wanna go out at night cos at that time i don't know if i am having dinner. and thus, wont know what time i will reach home and how much time do i have to type lesson plan. so i told him i am not going. he said i pangseh. and added "haha" and "lol". i was pretty offended. i don't live off my mother's money now. i have to work.

and when i knew i was going home, i thought i can rush finish my work and meet them so i wouldn't feel bad. and later, that fucker said this.

fucker: suan liao bah fri bah. my hair short go out pai seh like monk sia

me: Wtf? then you shouldn't even ask jus now wat.

fucker: cause i know u will say work ma then i can say t pang seh haha

WTF SIA?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Pissed or not. na bei. he called and i hung his phone. he ask to meet and i said no. cos i feel cheated. like how can he for the sake of saying i PANGSEH purposely come out with a plan of going out tonight? fuck.

RAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i had a super busy Saturday yesterday. but was happy. haha. except for the last plan. really have to apologise to Calvin and YZ. dui bu qi~ sorry sorry..

oh wells! i forgot to off my alarm and hence, got up at 7am on a beautiful Saturday. after hesistating for very long.. or rather, SLACKING for very long, decided to go back to school to do up my stuffs. left home at 11am. did some of my stuffs and met danting at about 1+pm. hehe!

at fareast, i bought a new wallet! very unique i must say. and it's but only $10!!! cheap deal. why not? i actually seen it online before. here it is.. *click to see wallet.* hehe! walked round and about and left for Vivo. nothing much also la. just that we ate at The mussel guy. very nice bake rice they have there. hehe! and slacked a lil while before we left in a cab. yesterday's expenditure was WOW! bought Bacardi at Giant..

on my way home in the cab, the uncle sped. omfg. and i got home pretty fast. shower and left house again.

drank and was drunk. lol! then i couldnt meet Calvin and YZ. i literally can be thrown around. i'm like really walking on air. duno why... past few times wasnt like this.. oh wells!!

and i slept slept slept from 1+ til 10+am. woooo.

i feel like i am blogging nonsense. haha. aftermath. LOL. as if. haha.

not very organised. will try to edit at a later date.

and yes, screw friendster!

muahahaha.

my mummy decided to call buffet for my chalet!! WEE!!!!

no BBQ!!!!! no messy clean up!!!! no waiting for food!!!! no need to ask the guest in early!!! :D :D :D

Eatz Catering Services

tentatively it's this caterer we are ordering from. ain't it great?!

CAN'T WAIT!! :D

so many food to eat from. YUMMY!! calling for 30-40 pax. hopefully there ain't leftovers. HOPEFULLY.

wohoo! another weekend before i slog like DA bian. wahahaha!

hmm. yesterday was the best working day of my whole entire life so far. when i went to work, my class attendance was only 1 out of 7. MUAHAHAHAHA!!! BUT!!! 2 of my afternoon kids came. so that makes 3. my tot class has only 2 kids. which makes 5 kids in 2 classes. and to think we had 5 teachers at that point... it makes 5:5 which is 1:1!!!!! how nice! but my boss made me and my Chinese lao shi do up my class. which means i don't need to look after the kids!!! :D :D :D

not that i don't wanna look after them hor. just that i was still in the holiday-ing mood. heh. i love my job. LOL! so, i put a new piece of cloth on my theme board, frame it, did up my birthday chart, covered my shelves with plastic sheets and added a cloth partition. so many things!!! hehe. but i was glad.

when the kids woke up, i brought them for a walk. oh yea! next week, i will pram my kids out to Tanjong Pagar Plaza. if you are wondering how i will look like as a mother, look for me there. WAHAHAHA! as if. LOL.

after which, i stayed in the centre til 7.30pm and went for dinner at Amara Hotel with my supervisor and Chinese lao shi. yup yup~

today, i am going back to school to do up my theme board. and and and!!!!!!! meet Danting later. hehe!!! i know she is waiting to see my hair. LOL!

suppose to go drinking with Calvin and YZ last night but don't know what happened to Calvin. oh wells! hope he gets better tho. all the EMO-ing has gotta end somehow. life is like that. perhaps he would say he can change it. well, if he can, he won't be in such a dire state. yea?

okays. i need to go back to school to do up my theme board now. cya!