disintegrate

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♥Angela Chan ♥Audrey ♥Candice Mei ♥Elynn ♥Emmeline ♥ Felicia ♥ Keline ♥Melissa ♥Sandy ♥Stefanie ♥Yanqin laobu ♥Yishan ♥Zhuxin ♥Alex ♥Alvin ♥Derek ♥Eldrid Monkey ♥Jason ♥Shabri.

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am sad. veri sad. no body's gonna care aniwae. sighs. later going out with him. things are gonna be the same. quarrel. this. that, this, that. bla bla bla. i hope he can understand mi and all. but nahz.. his frds.. family.. school... tkd... all more important than mi. yea i know.. i am not prioritised.. maybe i jus go away.. he might find it better.. he duno how i feel. duno how i think. duno wad i wan. he doesnt know anithing.. we are drifting. yes we are. i dun feel anithing when we go out now. the feeling of being loved has long disappeared from mi. perhaps i am someone who makes him hate mi more. despise mi more. scold mi more. maybe i am the one who changed him into a devil. sighs...

haf a feeling tat i gonna fall sick soon. no one is gonna care aniwae. no herbal tea. no one to acc mi to doctor. no one to take care of mi. it's mi in my lonely world. yea! no doubt... perhaps this relationship is gonna end soon. our story is coming to an end. i shall keep quiet until he brings the matter up. i jus wanna sit down.. facing the sea.. all by myself.. no one disturbing mi.. isnt it good? sighs.

i jus hope to haf someone who can understand mi, love mi, take care of mi, be faithful to mi. is tat so diff? i duno. yday tried toking to him in the end his frds called and he went and call his frds. DUH! if it was mi who called when he was on the line with his frd, he might haf say he'd call mi later cos he toking on the phone. DUH! i am not important. yes i know. forgot it. i dun wanna care abt him animore. altho i still do.. i will try to let him go.. so when the day comes when i can officially let him go, i can cope with the loss.. afterall, the loss is not gonna be so big, isnt it..

i duno. i suck. yea.