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hahaha! ok la.. prev entry last line was random.

oh well calvin, i think u oughtta give ppl trust abit more. y r u asking ppl to tell u their problems while u hide things amongst urself? u dont find the nid to tell mi. ha! den i think i dun find the nid to tell u mani things either. u might disagree wif wad i said cos tats the onli thing u ever do. disagree things about u which is in the bad light. give it a thought. how ppl surrender under ur irritating questionings? how ppl tell u their problems? yet u?? crack under pressure by shunning us, or rather, me off. time and again i asked u wad happened. yet u didnt wanna tell mi and instead, give mi a veri irrespobsible answer. wad if i was u and u were mi? wad if things happened like this? i know u will try means and ways to dig info off mi. and beg to know the stuffs. but hell, wad is happening to u now? i might not be able to help u solve ur problems. but i will be here to listen to ur probs. this sound mushy. but hey, i think we ought to grow out tat dimension where friends of diff sex cant love each other as good friends. tats all i wanna say to u. u know mi well, i dun talk much to ppl who cant think with their brains. i made this effort to talk things round and about to u. so hopefully, i wish u can absorb this. think it over when u shit eat drink sleep play and everything else. think it over. a deep thought. are u who u wanna be bcos of this or bcos of this u become who u wanna be? are u changing situations or is situations changing u? think it over, buddy.

been long since i type a veri serious post. will do so tmr or tonight. hopefully. getting ready for work now. 4+ go work. so tiring.. find a man and get married to will solve my problem. my criteria not high la. hahahha! got job, got car, matured, presentable can liao. HAHAAHA! and u know wad.. my mum was asking mi to find a bf the other day. hello momma! i am onli 17. or rather, NOT YET. hehehe!