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i am really very angry la okay. i can cry now! RAH!!! FUCK.

i hate it when things become like that. i don't know if is it because i woke up from the wrong side of the bed during my afternoon nap. but still, fuck.

i woke up from my evening nap cos my mum asked if i wanna go to Causeway point with her to meet my elder sis. cos my mum wanna get the phone if my sis decided to re-contract with Singtel. okay. fine. i didn't wanna go cos i thought my second sis would follow her. and when i woke up, it doesn't seem to me that my second sis follower my mum although no one was home. so i called my mum and she left her phone in the house. so i thought prolly she's with my second sis since she didn't bring her phone. after a Lil while, my mum came home and asked if i called her. so i said yes. i told her that i was wondering if my second sis followed her. so she said no cos my third uncle brought her out together with my cousin to eat. so, fine. i showered and followed my mum there.

on the way, we were discussing what to eat. and we couldn't make a decision. so i thought i meet my elder sis first. so we met at Singtel shop. she knew about the re-contract terms and made us go down?! WTF! wasted my time!!! i was already very fed up cos of a conversation between her and my mum.

sis: *explains the re-contract terms* (cos both my dad and her have the same line, either of them could re-contract. so, my sis asked my mum if my father was willing to do it.)

mum: (i think my mum thought my sis would do it.) then you re-contract lor.

sis: huh? (in that fucking tone like a rich answering the poor when the poor ask a favour of the rich.)

mum: *keeps quiet*

WTF? how on earth could she reply that? wtf wtf wtf!

so we left. separate roads to have dinner. and i was very pissed already okay. she replied like that. and i went to CWP for less than an hour just to don't know do what. WHAT THE FUCK MEN! totally wasted my trip and my time and my money! WTF!!!!!!!!! we didn't even eat there. fuck. and i was fucking hungry. na bei.. then later i decided to go eat Yoshinoya. and my mum asked if i had money. i have la. but i don't know if it is enough so i ask how much she have. she said she has only $6. i was so bloody pissed and i told her we'll go home. and i just walked off.

okay. my fault for throwing temper tantrums. i admit. i admit we could have ate 2 meals with the amount of money we both have. fine. and she did say she will go withdraw. but! by the time she withdraw the money, what time already? and the Q's at CWP's ATM is always fucking long. WTF!!!!

and when i came home, my father like ordering my mother. WTF men. i am just so angry at the way she was being treated. i was mean also okay. i admit. i shouldn't have thrown temper tantrums. i admit. but still, i just felt the pain when she was being treated like that. i was also one of the mean ones.. i feel for my mother. i really am sorry.. i hate things work.

and of all times, this bloody fucker had to sms me. and asked if i wanna go drink. obviously i wont cos i have got commitments tomorrow. not like i don't need to work okay. and he said to meet earlier. but cos i haven't type my lesson plan, i didn't wanna go out at night cos at that time i don't know if i am having dinner. and thus, wont know what time i will reach home and how much time do i have to type lesson plan. so i told him i am not going. he said i pangseh. and added "haha" and "lol". i was pretty offended. i don't live off my mother's money now. i have to work.

and when i knew i was going home, i thought i can rush finish my work and meet them so i wouldn't feel bad. and later, that fucker said this.

fucker: suan liao bah fri bah. my hair short go out pai seh like monk sia

me: Wtf? then you shouldn't even ask jus now wat.

fucker: cause i know u will say work ma then i can say t pang seh haha

WTF SIA?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Pissed or not. na bei. he called and i hung his phone. he ask to meet and i said no. cos i feel cheated. like how can he for the sake of saying i PANGSEH purposely come out with a plan of going out tonight? fuck.

RAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!