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i'm going so mad. erms. ya. yesterday dear brought mi the xmas gift. veri nice... the piglet at the timezone there. yea. erms. todae.. sighs. so mani probs lately. i think i deserv it. sighs.

tml is the exchange le. sighs. so scared. later gonna practice my guzhen. hehe. i wanna thank emily and audrey for flooding my tagboard. love them heaps.

yea. sighs. so mani things happened. he said tat i dun trust him at all. i mean... i duno how to trust u alreadi. wad haf u done to make mi trust u again. sighs. yea. erms. i think the onli promise u fulfilled is the piglet. which i realli treasure it alort. yesterday suddenly i stop and was thinking abt mani things.. all the things tat happened. i apologised for scolding u fuck u jus now. but i was realli veri angry. lyk when i told u abt my sis. den u lyk abit despise her. u knoe how i feel? she is also my sister. the more weird she is, the more i mus accept her. not to throw her aside. its been a realli realli long time since we actually talked. i sms u this yesterday. and no reply. u seem to totally not care. sighs. maybe i am sensitive ba. haiz. i knoe i cant solely blame u and everything. i knoe i shouldnt haf brought the matter of the sms up. but u knoe. it realli hurts mi u knoe. lyk i see u dun even talk to mi online or phone or sometimes dun even reply my sms. and u sms her. and u said i also sms my god bro. so r u trying to dig up all the bad things right. so u mean i also can go out with other guys without ur acknowledgement? u say i dun trust u at all and it doesnt seems lyk last time. so, u also knoe tat it isnt lyk last time ya... sighs. fine. i think i shouldnt care so much le lorhs. i should jus mind my own business. i shant expect mani things from u okaes.

shrugs.......................... break mi away from here............................. sighs.
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where are my past post?

i suck.

i am a bitch.

i am a looser.

i think i am right all the time.