disintegrate

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even tho it brks my heart to know we'll be so far apart. i love u too much to make u stay. baby fly away...

yea. i'm feeling so sad now. i duno how to desribe tho.. jus lyk... lonely? i duno. yeps. called for a brk up again.. i was willing to let go.. but something held mi bak. this is the duno how mani times alr.. i feel lyk i am being used.. i duno if it's the right term to use.. but.... i jus feel sad and neglected.. i tried to forget abt the feeling.. but i jus dun seem to. i jus keep on thinking of the things we did together and all.. knowing tat he'll not be with mi one da realli tarnishes my dream. i feel so weak now tho... i hands are trembling. perhaps ppl out there might be thinking i'm so fake. oh, wadever. i cant be bothered with u all ani longer.

i duno why.. but i'm realli willing to let go. but... something jus hold mi bak. i wanna be strong.. but.. i duno.. i feel lyk i'm wasting my time on this whole thing. perhaps he wun understand how i feel. i wanna tell him.. but... i jus couldnt. he wouldnt listen. i'll get scolded. it goes over and over again. maybe some other girls fit him better. i duno. i know crying isnt a solution.. but i haf no one to confide to or something... so i'll confide in my tears. i duno. i jus seem to give up on everything alr. lyk TOTALLY. no point living on i guess. perhaps i'm still a hindrance.

i'm actually wating for him to tok to mi. can u imagine...... sighs..i guess i'm going out to straighten my thoughts later.. having class later also. but on second thought... i'd rather stay home to study..

is he actually so important to mi?
is it him or mi who cant straighten our own thoughts?