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SIGHS! i jus feel lyk listening to some sad songs to accompany my mood. i duno y i duno how. but jus lyk tat.

honestly. i got a feeling about it. and it came true todae... so? i duno. perhaps it's my turn soon. i duno. can i add tat i aint bothered? NO! i actually am veri bothered with it. yes. i duno. AHH! this is a crazy world. sighs.

going to charlyn's grandpa's wake later.. sighs. i duno how i will react. i duno wad to do at a wake. sighs. i hope she is fine... sighs. wad will i do if i haf a funeral within my family? sighs. i duno how i will cope. wif my grt grandma's health lyk tat.. i duno wad i can do.. sighs. but i still hope i can see charlyn's smile later... : ) i hope everything is well for her.

hmm. todae marks the end of exams. end of school. end of christ church. end of memories. end of everything.. i always remembered how i got into the sch. and my first day.. i will also nvr forget those nonsense things we did. how beautiful... if onli time could stop. if onli time could turn back. if only... it's a wonderful yet dreamy word.

listen to the news jus now. it's lyk.. they said george bush has some connection with those bombers... and has plotted to bomb the tv station... and his spokesmen claim tat he is joking... i jus find tat the world is in a mess with him ard... jus my own comments... god save the queen... god saved me.

kaimeng was late for the exam todae. 40mins. and they let him in.. cos of the xiao yuan superstar thing... sighs.. dreams VS reality.. i duno.. dare to dream...

i seriously duno wad is wrong with mi.. but i seem to be pouring out my sorrows.. well.. this is the onli place.. right? since i cant do it to you.. i guess i can onli do it here... as mentioned previously.. i cried to slp. called a few ppl. but to no avail... they onli told mi todae tat they were asleep alr... i duno. but i've been crying every night.. ever since you came bak... i know you dont know. i know you wun know. maybe you dun care? love is in the air..... not anymore....... this is a song dedicated to you. i hope you will read the lyrics. but. i doubt tat you will even come to my blog?

I F Y O U D I D N ' T L O V E M E
Written by Carole Bayer Sager, Carole King & Corrinne May Ying Foo
Copyright 2000, All About Me Music admin. by Warner Tamerlane (BMI)/ Lushmole Music (BMI) / Corrmay Gourmet Music (ASCAP)

If every drop of water disappeared from the land
And every drop of ocean suddenly turned to sand
That would all be nothing
Compared to what I'd feel
If you didn't love me

What if I woke up and couldn't hear a sound
And all that I could see was darkness all around
That would still be nothing
Compared to what I'd feel
If you didn't love me

If I could have the world and all that money could buy
And I could travel far beyond the moon and the sky
If they gave me golden wings,
well I still couldn't fly
without you, nothing would matter

You and I walk beside each other day after day
But there's so much inside me, I never get to say
My life would be so empty
with nothing left to feel
If you didn't love me

without your love. without your touch. without you.