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oh well. i am pretty hurt. argh! wadever... no one cares. i think i am giving up on all things. nth is worth my care. not even YOU can make mi change my mind. i actually went for confession yesterday... and i scolded vulgarities right after that.. in a span of less than an hr. how holy of mi. and i forced myself to recite the rosary the whole night before i slept.. i hope the confirmation to is meaningful for mi. i dun wanna get confirmed wif a whole deal of sins. and i learn to let go..

yday was fine. aunty silvia duno wanna bring how mani ppl to the mass. damn. i hate squeezing pews. and our pew is short. ewww.. i am the first to get the annointing of chrism. haha. i hope nth goes wrong tho... hafta be in church at 4pm. dread it.. with our attire and all on us. wad if it gets dirty? who is gonna be responsible? ewwwww. nvm... once in a lifetime...

class chalet is todae!!!! cant wait.. (: too bad i can onli join them tmr. heh heh heh. planning some games. i better remember to buy plastic bags.. so can throw water bomb. hahahahaha!!!!! mean mi. -evil grins.. i am veri much looking forward to it.. yea!

confirmation confirmation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! finally.. 10yrs of awaiting is coming to an end. 10 yrs of catechism class has all come down to today. today is the day!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!! i cant wait.. so mani things for mi to look forward to. haha.

alrite. i am off now.. hafta do some stuffs...

i realise i have lost all connections with you. i realise there is no bond in us anymore. what is the point of being good only for awhile and quarreling most of the time? perhaps we should both do some soul searching and reflections before making any decision. perhaps we should give each other a great big deal of time to think over what has been done and said.. the happy and unhappy times we had together. or should i say unhappy times only? i duno. i have no idea wad u think of this relationship. but i just find that both our time has gone down the drain. both our affectionate and love for each other that has mounted over 18mths has indeed been wasted. i leave this to you. cos i dun wanna waste any of my time on a relationship that doesnt seem to bear any fruits. right now, all i can offer is sorry. altho my love for u is there.. i can sense that it is dead..