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oh yes. i am a bad daughter. cos you said so. if i had the fucking money, you think i wont move out? and i am so ever thankful that i work and study till so damn late now cos i don't have to see you. if there is ever a day, i will not stay home alone with you. trust me. cos i only know how to eat and sleep. so you say.

and so, now you regret forking the money for me to study? hell yes. if i have the money, i'll throw the whole stack of money at your face. dont you think that its your duty to feed me? like hello, i was only 16 then. so if i am a bad daughter, why eat the food i bought? why would i even bother working at a tender young age?

for your information, i dont earn fucking much. i bring home nto only a thousand dollars. i still have my insurance to pay for. which takes up 1/5 of my pay. i give you and mum money too. so, WTF is it that you want from me?

i don't know how to think and other ppl says that you are a good father. tell me, how many times do you tell those young puns out there what you did when i was young? whacking the hell out of me and my sisters. shouting and screaming at us like my mum and my sis and me owes you our fucking lives. dont you think its time to show us a little love?

i don't fucking like to wash dirty linen in public but i decided. enough is enough.

so if you think i am bad, so be it. i was never good. i worked at such a young age for MY own good. i go home late at night cos i was ENJOYING life. hell yes. i only think about myself. i dont think about you. satisfied with my answer now? are you happy now?

i wish that you fucking read this. to know how fucking bad a daughter i am.

all the time that i prayed for you was wasted. its just for my own good.
all the time i work and study so that i dont waste more of your money was wasted. was only for my own good.
all the time i came home late was cos i was working and studying. do you know?
you dont even know where i work and i bet you might not know i am studying at the same time.
here i am at home, wasting your resources. trust me. i will MOVE OUT SOON.

been a long time since i cried and type a post. and so, this post is for you; the one who said i was a bad daughter.