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aint feeling thrilled about it. AT ALL. yes. not at all. i kinda sulk this few days. but nonetheless showing the diff mi. have been smiling outside. but in class i'm lyk *sobs. yes. i duno y. but it's lyk.... i cant take it. ppl around mi. days pass, people grows old, people come, people go, everything changes. but the earth still spins. lyk yes. it still spins. i wanna dedicate a few things to diff ppl..

dear:
came to write for u. but aint sure if u'd be able to see it before i return from camp. even if u tho.. and i ask favours of u, u wouldnt be bothered. u couldnt care much. i knoe last night is hectic. but i could say somehow.. u called at the wrong time. as in..... i am sleeping. and u called. i wanna tell u. i almost spurt it out. but u wun haf the patience to hear it.. so.... how am i suppose to air my views? u knoe.. i haf told u wad i said over and over again. and ur reasons seem to repeat over mi over and over again. i knoe i'm wrong by comparing. but... i cant help. wad can they do and wad do u do. u may say i am dependent on u. however u wanna put it. i seriously cant stand u sometimes.. i realli wonder if we're realli for each other. u might say i'm still childish. i wouldnt have been lyk this if u would haf put in more trust in this relationship. if onli u could be more faithful. if u hadnt done anithing wrong.. i wouldnt relate things so far. and its NOT ONLY once. think about it.. i knoe it's my fault too. i admit. i knoe u haf changed in temper wise. i know i am still the same. or even.. worst. i've been trying.. i have been.... i have...
* i'm off to camp oreadi. am gonna miss u loads. wish u're the first thing i see after i finish. but i know it's impossible. but do raise my hopes of seeing u. realli love u loads. do take care of urself. drink more water.. dun go out so often. save ur money. muacks...
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this relationship seems to be drifting.. no more i love u. no more kiss. no more hugs. nth is left for mi to ponder on. but i knoe i love him loads to even bother telling him things over and again.. but i knoe his work is tiring and time and energy consuming... i'll be independent.

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have deleted wilfred's number a few days back. yes..

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i wanna write for emily something.. but Jude jus called to rush mi. and i'm off. meeting the gang at al ameen to haf roti prata for brkfast.

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