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yeps. i'm back. yes. ((:

i guess i lucked out in school todae. had PE. i was complaining to Haresh + laopo + Daryl during the 1hr physics b4 PE. cos i dun wanna run. and i am fitted into this thing. TAF CLUB! horror! hu ask mi to be so fat. *pfft but.. never the mind. i am used to it. hahahaha! -smirks. den during PE the mr.Gerard went for the sec 1 camp i suppose. den i went with mr.Azman for PE instead. with the whole class. it's kinda horrifying. sighs~ lemme brief u on wad we did.

we went to the field. ran around it for one round.
we did stretching which includes stretching of legs, necks, hands.
we were seperated into 2 grps. and one hafta run the field while the other do some exercise with him. so first. push ups..
den we ran
den sit ups
den we ran
den burpeese or smth...
den we ran.

WTF! it IS tiring throughout. but i realli wanna thank my laopo and Daryl hu ran with mi and encouraged mi. Luna and cassandra and xinying and sandy and Calvin too! so thankful to them!!! although the Daryl keep disturbing mi but it's ok. it's usual for him. haha! i gonna write a testimonial for my laopo later. muack muacks for them. love them to the bits!

den came D&T. the mdm.Teo damn FUCK can. bitch. i went and wait for Emily. den later she was dilly dallying inside. which is as usual. so i'm used to lyk waiting. den we were late! wtf. den mi and emily and one more guy were onli a few steps behind her. den she turn to us and say ppl after her is late. so we tio. but we couldnt walk fast as there is those sec 2 who seems to block us here and there. DUHS! and i'm so huge. how u exoect mi to squeeze with them right. downright maluating can. den she *flip flop flip flop flip flop* talk alortsa rubbish. fucking shit. den Zinette said her excuse and she lyk duno say wad. den she say u all go in stand. den we stood at our place. Emily did apologise. but i was kinda pissed still. cos she morning assembly oso lyk tat. den in the end i wait for her tat time she with someone else. i might as well go off first right. arghs. no one understands de larhs. den i wanna go toilet cos it was urgent den she say bring her the work i did when we were left alone for free period. den i brought mine. she say not from home one. den i was lyk it's not. i let my frds see. they comment on it. den she say i dun understand the writing. explain. den i was lyk hello. i am urgent now. u wanna wipe for mi if i pee out now? den emily they all laughed. den i told her i'm gonna see u later aniwae. y not show u later. den she let mi off. *pfft. shit arse. i hope mr.Toh come back. i will not take him for granted. please God. amen!

sighs. next it would hafta be relationship. i find we're kinda drifting. and i knoe he finds mi irritating here and there. time and again. but i couldnt help it. he is not with mi most of the tym and i sms him he wun reply. i tried talking to him but in the end he hafta sleep early. den its the same again and again. he keep having last minute thiings.. all i ask for is a weekend with him. two days.... so diff? sighs. i dun understand him sometimes. to be honest.. i've been crying everyday.. lyk crazy. and i bet he doesnt knoe. cos i said.. he wasnt there. aniwhere. everywhere. ask him to buy herbal tea for mi todae when he coming over.. duno he gonna buy or not. i dun think so. hmm. ya. never buy. yes. jus reached. yes. nvr buy. forget it. i gonna buy myself instead. *pfft. maybe toime constrain.. although i try to understand... but most of the time i dun. i will run wild on imaginations. which is a big NO NO. cos i knoe everything will be ruin jus bcos of this. but sometimes i cannot help it. cos he is lyk not here whenever i nid him and he leaves mi alone. and i knoe tat he is realli busy.. but i kinda cant stand it sometimes.. i realli wanna brk it up.. but it kinda lyk... dun bear u see.. sighs. but i knoe i still love him veri much.. but perhaps i'll try to adjust to everything... but i feel tat after i know him.. i've been adjusting to mani things.. and i duno y.. i wanna go bak to the old me. i realli miss the old mi.. i realli do. yeps. but i somehow cant get used to this... i hope he will see this. but i duno if he would.. i jus hope he does...