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seriously.

don't know what is going on in my mind. it just twirls and twirls like a typhoon. been leading me to not sleep properly. i mean i could have not be bothered by it and just live on. but its like taking a part of me away. it just kinda like tear away. i dont know. it just makes me Topsy turvy.

perhaps i trust too fast. but how can i not. everything was fine and well. the next moment, I'm being pushed away. ha! how fun huh. pushed. really dislike it. so what if your friend likes me? i dont even know him at all! "he will treat you better than i do." ha! hilarious. dammit. now i am being stranded like nothing at all. "just friends". hell yes. of course we're friends. how much closer can we get huh? jerk ass. seriously sick of all this. i could have believe myself and forget about the whole deal. but i didn't. and now. stuck. how nice. it just thrills you to see me like this huh?

am gonna forget the whole deal. if it comes to me, then i'll see from there. it just gets so... ... ... ... GAH! i don't know. fuck forget it.

my weekends couldnt be better than to be spent sleeping. sleeping and sleeping. i seriously have no life i guess. just sleeping everyday away. i better get something to do soon. its not as if my work is so super tiring. but yes. nevermind about it.

met XY the other day and we went to ikea. didnt get to eat the meatballs as suggested cos it was too packed. so we had BK in the end. bought 2 box to fill my notes in. my notes is/are/was/were taking a big BIG part of my table. better get it packed and stuff away. ASAP!

time flies. it's already March now. hmm.. very soon. it will be June. and September. and December. muahahahaha! christmas. new year. everything all over again. wahahaha. but we just end the lunar new year. oh well!

i hafta go shower now and get myself to work.