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alrite. look at my nick. i am rather PISSED with life here. sighs. i shall tell u all EVERYTHING from last night.

alrite. so i was on the phone with dear. usual stuffys. den it was pretty quiet. so.... i remembered tat tym mi and Fiona laopo read this mag. so this particular mag went to the streets to kinda lyk INTERVIEW those street-sters. the question was wad would u lyk to chnage about ur gf. GF onli. so they were practically interviewing GUYS onli. so.. there were alortsa negative ones and 2 positive ones. some of the negative went lyk..... "i hope she'd be less bitchy." "i wish she wore more skirts." those 2 positive ones. which was ULTIMATELY sweet!!! yea!! they went lyk "i wouldnt wan her to change anything for she is perfect" "i wouldnt want her to change anithing for she is wad i love." so sweet rite. so i asked dear. he went HUH! and ask mi repeat. i was kinda mad.. it's not i dun wanna repeat lorhs. jus tat he isnt listening to wad i say always. yea! and i am soooooooo pissed lohs. lyk y isnt he listening to wad i say. den in a while.. hung up. and i had flu. and he asked if there is anithing wrong with my nose. so i went lyk no. and i bet he would take it as no lorhs. sighs.. den he say he'd call mi bak later. den i told him dun nid. den hang. den he sms. den i slept.

this morning. or infact.. the whole day WASN'T right. i was damn fucking pissed. i shall describe mani mani things. pfft!! morning assembly was shit. cos it's lyk no one wanna sing the national anthem. den we were made to stand at the field to sing. and we couldnt hear the tape so we're laughing. so got one tcher scold us lor. he went lyk it's ur nation's song and u're laughing? LOLs. it was realli funny. everyone couldnt tolerate it. yea.

den after everything.. came accounts. Calvin and mi hesitated to go for accounts class. cos we're dropping. but in the end we still went. den hor. the table was vandalised until lyk shit. den later i asked mr.Tien.. den he say aiyaa. mus be those CO ppl yesterday. den i was so fucking pissed lorhs. den the UNIVERSITY STUDENT went lyk co co co lyk tat. i waws so pissed. den i went lyk ____ sucks. yea.

during recess.. i was so late. and the chi stall didnt open. so had to buy noodles instead. so fine.. si hui was there. so we ask si hui to help us buy. den hors. i was next to her. den got one concillor say get in line. den i went in. den this BITCH said tat excuse mi. i didnt see u lining up. can u stand aside. y r u Q-ing up. den i was lyk i help her take laksa. den later she say i dun think she nid someone to help her take as she is buying onli one bowl. den i veri angry. didnt eat. onli ate sandwich. den i told emily lorhs. Johnathan onli one person buy so mani bowls. his frd all there.. y dun catch them. catch mi for wad. den hor. the NIPPLE was there hypocriting about Johnathan they all lorhs. fucking hell. all hypocrite.

den when going to class after recess, luna was going up the stairs. den someone step on her shoes. den she stood there to wear her shoes back as it came off. Lile go bang her. and instead scold her. den luna was angry.. den chongchen ask luna dun say anithing cos luna was scolding lile kp or smth.. den i was lyk comfort luna. den she cried. den lyk tat lohs.

den after sch. fucking hell. even big tai ji. mi and emily yesterday go eat at CWP foodcourt. so there were 2 admiralty sec girls. so they slam the bags on the table. it's onli my right reaction tat i'd be turning around to see lohs. den i duno. since den they kept staring at Emily. den todae at fdcourt i didnt eat during reces so went there for lunch. den later.. those girls came again. den they sat down den she say wah lau eh. gang gang lai jiu diao ren.. den didnt bother abt them lohs. so hor. she took her bag after eating. den i tot she wanna go to the toilet. den she didnt. she came to our table and point at Emily. and say in chinese y u stare at mi yesterday. she was pointing lor! den emily say she nvr and tat it's them which stare first but emily was looking at another side. so they say y again. den i say hello, u see hu wanna stare at u first. u think we wanna stare at u ah. den later she say duno wad den another girl say if u nvr look at us, how u know we look at u. den i told her in english. cos i couldnt stand mandarin. i said. it's the same thing. if u dun look at mi, how i look at u. if i dun look at u, how i knoe if u look at mi? den she say u dun tok to mi in english. my english veri poor. deni was lyk my chinese veri poor wad u wan mi to do. den she diam. so Emily kinda freak out. so she said since u say it's my fault. i apologise. den they still not happy. emily apologised 2 times. den hor. XY tell them can u dun be so unreasonable.........bla......bla........bla..........bla.........bla.......bla.... den got one girl say u werent here yesterday. den later xinying duno say wad after awhile. den later she say u r not here u dun tok or smth lyk tat. den i say u dun talk rudely to my frd. den she diam. den sometimes i tok i will point point point. as in all 5 fingers out. den later she say u tok y point point point. den later i say u oso wad. den she say i started it first. den later right. i say.. when u think u r right. wadever i say is all my fault. den later she diam. den one girl ask another. den she ask ea other. wahow u wanna settle. wanna call ppl down settle or not. den i was thinking to myself. u dun act big la. u wan call u call lor. i see whose gang big. cos i intend to call back school. den she nothing to say. den she walk off tat tym say. wah lau eh. si bei guai lan. chee bye. fuck lorhs. hu she think she is lohs. den i called mr.Ang... den he say he ask mr.Seet come down. but he come down oso no use. cos nvr do anithing oso. jus talk onli...

jus "quarrelled" with my mom. she say she spend her salary on clothings. but i onli bought one set. den i say my clothings leh. den she say tat tym give mi $50 y i nvr go buy. den i tell her she nvr give mi recess money. den she duno say wad.. sighs..

i'm feeling so depressed now lorhs... haiz. i duno larhs. everything is failing mi... i knoe the accounts tat one is my ttitude problem.. haiz. but hors. other things is lyk......... sighs. i realli feeling veri depressed right now lorhs. haiz. i feel lyk talking to someone... but no one is there.. haiz..