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i'm crying. again. i duno y. i realli duno y. i log in to his maple account. and realise something diff. i panicked. i called my sis and ask if it was her. she said yes. i was veri angry. it means alot to mi. maybe they dunno how i feel. but it means a whole deal to mi. i know its jus a game. but u jus duno how it feels. i know... being angry wif my sis for playing wif somebody's thing which i am not thanked for is stupid.. but it means alot to mi. altho it seems stupid, i still feel veri strong for it.

todae was ok. in the end YK didnt follow us. he said it was too early. when i reach, kokchye was there. but he was waiting for another grp. wif kaimeng. todae is his bdae. yesss.. den we went to my sch to hand in the registeration fees and headed to suntec for lunch and went to the IT fair. den we went gachapon at the arcade and played the mario racing game. it was so SILLY. haha. i was last. i didnt know how to control it. haha! played with stef,derek and yangsheng. yea. in the end the 3 of us with km's grp met in the end. for a movie. diff seats cos we bought it first. ha! angela lim, alycia, shujun, kyler, kaimeng, dennis, kokchye and yangsheng was there also. yea. den i tried the game. it was stupid. i duno y i played. i think jus to waste money and be happy. crazy me. den we watched the date movie. it was stupid. the story plot is mixed up. kinda sucks. give it 2/5 for rating. it's kinda lame and pointless.

i realise i miss him alot. i sms him jus now. jus tell him i miss him alot. haiz. i know he wun reply. but sighs.. i duno.. haiz. it kinda hurt to hold on.. but i still am holding on. todae when we went bak, we took 960.. and i walked the place where both of us walked often. it kidna saddens mi. i watched movie where we both frequent. from time to time, i wished he was there to hug mi cos it was so cold. i ate the chicken fried rice... the first meal he bought for mi in suntec. haiz. from time to time, i stared blankly in space. i was thinking about him. haiz. somehow felt extra todae. sighs. i duno. somethings arent meant to be commented on. tried to hide my inner feelings. but i know i cry when i am alone. haiz.

will u ever read this blog ever again? i love you. keep the little feeling in u and keep it growing. i'll be praying everyday... i miss u alot. ur everything. i know it seems silly.. i keep thinking from time to time if u will use the wallet i got u. haiz. i love u dear. i duno wad will become of us in the future.. but i hope u'd be really happy during the time we r apart.. haiz. realli wish to see u one more time. to be like last time.to start all over again... i've been listening to songs this few days. and i cant help but cry when i heard the songs u sang for mi before.